This week.. i have been:-
-working
-drunk
-sick/headache/hangover
-almost robbed or kidnapped ( a van slowly following you around..screams of robbery/kidnap)
....i will be:-
-going for a boring trip to cameron highlands on the weekend
An eventful week eh..
Friday, December 21, 2007
Monday, December 17, 2007
hohoho
hohoho, Christmas is around the corner and I still haven't went shopping or rather have money to go shopping yet. Damned cheques take so long to bank in. gg.com
One more thing, do not take your food for granted. These food u consume comes at great costs and even greater suffering by the animals u consume. Sometimes people go to really cruel extremes just to preserve that hint of "freshness". Go google it and see for urself.
or just click on this link Animal Cruelty
or this link Animal Cruelty 2
To people who eat dogs and cats, go fuck yourself. And no, i don't give a damn about ur shit demented sicko traditions of eating these cute creatures. FUCK U CHINAMEN AND VIETS OR WHOEVER WHO EATS DOGS! U DISGRACE CHINESE PEOPLE..wait..U DISGRACE HUMANITY U BITCHES! GO CUT UR DICK OUT AND SEE HOW IT TASTES LIKE U DESPERATE FUCKTARDS.
One more thing, do not take your food for granted. These food u consume comes at great costs and even greater suffering by the animals u consume. Sometimes people go to really cruel extremes just to preserve that hint of "freshness". Go google it and see for urself.
or just click on this link Animal Cruelty
or this link Animal Cruelty 2
To people who eat dogs and cats, go fuck yourself. And no, i don't give a damn about ur shit demented sicko traditions of eating these cute creatures. FUCK U CHINAMEN AND VIETS OR WHOEVER WHO EATS DOGS! U DISGRACE CHINESE PEOPLE..wait..U DISGRACE HUMANITY U BITCHES! GO CUT UR DICK OUT AND SEE HOW IT TASTES LIKE U DESPERATE FUCKTARDS.
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
:D
After almost 2 year of my life bumming around, going for odd jobs, and being a S'bux barista..
and with God's grace and blessings that..
I'm finally a proud- fuckin- Uni- student!
Got my results today and i did pretty good, missed by a grade to get a scholarship though :/ , well all is good anyway.
Anyways, can't wait to start my new course but I would like to enjoy my holiday thoroughly too.
and with God's grace and blessings that..
I'm finally a proud- fuckin- Uni- student!
Got my results today and i did pretty good, missed by a grade to get a scholarship though :/ , well all is good anyway.
Anyways, can't wait to start my new course but I would like to enjoy my holiday thoroughly too.
Monday, December 10, 2007
:)
Happy 10th (month) anniversary dear :)
I just dled a song which was stickin in my head for quite some time .. its I can't smile without you by Barry Manilow.
You know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh
and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm go ing through,
I just Can't Smile Without You.
You came along just like a song
and brightened my day,
Who'd've believe that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away.
And now you know I Can't Smile WIthout You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm finding it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If you only knew what I"m going through,
I just can't smile.
Now some people sa y happiness takes so very long to find.
Well I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me.
And you see,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh
and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
Y ou see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm going through,
I just Can't Smile Without You
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The last few days have been pretty eventful, went to a car show in Bukit Jalil which costed me a hefty rm25. The show wasn't really worth it coz we (me, rob,cheek) didn't see any drift or drag demonstrations I was expecting...well asides from one or two race queens and quite a number of heavily modified uber cars.
I also went for paintball near the Subang lake which was pretty fun. It was abit fustrating though coz the paint balls didn't go straight.. but i hit a few sweet shots which made it all worth it.
Gonna go for turbo chef class 2morow..which means eating eating and eating :P
nites peps.
I just dled a song which was stickin in my head for quite some time .. its I can't smile without you by Barry Manilow.
You know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh
and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm go ing through,
I just Can't Smile Without You.
You came along just like a song
and brightened my day,
Who'd've believe that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away.
And now you know I Can't Smile WIthout You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm finding it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If you only knew what I"m going through,
I just can't smile.
Now some people sa y happiness takes so very long to find.
Well I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me.
And you see,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh
and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
Y ou see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm going through,
I just Can't Smile Without You
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The last few days have been pretty eventful, went to a car show in Bukit Jalil which costed me a hefty rm25. The show wasn't really worth it coz we (me, rob,cheek) didn't see any drift or drag demonstrations I was expecting...well asides from one or two race queens and quite a number of heavily modified uber cars.
I also went for paintball near the Subang lake which was pretty fun. It was abit fustrating though coz the paint balls didn't go straight.. but i hit a few sweet shots which made it all worth it.
Gonna go for turbo chef class 2morow..which means eating eating and eating :P
nites peps.
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
bleh
My sleeping time is screwed up again -.-
Its 4.30 now and i have work at 2pm.. dunno if i can wake up or not ~.~
I miss my baby :( .. had to leave her at the store. (T.T)
Anyways, my refrigerator is officially condemned now after about 5 yrs of good service. Called a repairman to fix it up but i guess he's not coming today. There goes my ice cream and chocolate :/
Its 4.30 now and i have work at 2pm.. dunno if i can wake up or not ~.~
I miss my baby :( .. had to leave her at the store. (T.T)
Anyways, my refrigerator is officially condemned now after about 5 yrs of good service. Called a repairman to fix it up but i guess he's not coming today. There goes my ice cream and chocolate :/
Thursday, November 22, 2007
smile
A perfect start for the day may not necessarily be the occasional sandwich or the ever present scent of brewed coffee in the kitchen, It can be the presence of someone you hold dear to you. To me, my day started of with sore eyes and a heavy head which was pretty much washed away with a quick warm bath. And there I was, sitting right in front of the computer screen again. Staring blankly into it, pondering of the plans which I had for the day. It was a hard choice I must say, between doing something you really want to do or to spend time with your other special half. Well, I'm glad i made latter choice.
Spotted you next to the pastry case today. You looked wonderful, well, you always manage to do that. A perfect start to the day indeed. A brimming smile, an infectious grin, the soft touch of your hands. A recipe for a fruitful day.
Now the day is over, the journey brought to a halt. Time to rest, time to dream.
If i could see a star, I would wish upon that star to give you a good nights' sleep. Till the next time we meet again, in our dreams. Nite.
Spotted you next to the pastry case today. You looked wonderful, well, you always manage to do that. A perfect start to the day indeed. A brimming smile, an infectious grin, the soft touch of your hands. A recipe for a fruitful day.
Now the day is over, the journey brought to a halt. Time to rest, time to dream.
If i could see a star, I would wish upon that star to give you a good nights' sleep. Till the next time we meet again, in our dreams. Nite.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
sigh
People believe in a whole multitude of things, spirits for an example. To me, I believe in angels. I believe in a higher power. I believe in God. I believe in heaven and hell. Most of all, I believe in love. Love has done wonders in my life, it has brought me where I am right now. I feel lucky to love and be loved from God, my family, my friends and even my beloved dogs. And there's one thing I know for sure, I love you. From the first time i met you to the last time I saw you behind the bar in the store, I loved you. I have never felt so sure in my life. I'm not cheating to myself, I'm not disillusioning myself, I'm being honest to myself for I believe and feel with all my heart that I love you. Love is a wonderful thing I must say, it saves people from the deepest depths of darkness, gives them a second chance and even heals all the pain we might feel and suffer from.
I just want to say that I have found my angel. An angel which brings me back to my feet, an angel which loves me and cares for me tenderly with her embracing wings. That angel is you, Fern. But even angels have problems I must say, now, my angel is in pain..
If there was anything which could hurt me, it would be seeing you sad whilst I am not able to do anything to help. I think of you every day, every time.. I look at the empty seats and tables in the store and I see images of you.. smiling, happily giggling around. When I am with you, my day brightens up. Every time your not around, my eyes wander everywhere in hope of seeing you.. To be honest, I miss you. I'm sorry if I'm not being myself lately or even getting irritated for the slightest reasons. I truly am.
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I just want to say that I have found my angel. An angel which brings me back to my feet, an angel which loves me and cares for me tenderly with her embracing wings. That angel is you, Fern. But even angels have problems I must say, now, my angel is in pain..
If there was anything which could hurt me, it would be seeing you sad whilst I am not able to do anything to help. I think of you every day, every time.. I look at the empty seats and tables in the store and I see images of you.. smiling, happily giggling around. When I am with you, my day brightens up. Every time your not around, my eyes wander everywhere in hope of seeing you.. To be honest, I miss you. I'm sorry if I'm not being myself lately or even getting irritated for the slightest reasons. I truly am.
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Updates
I can feel the sunshine, I can smell the freedom..
of..
a 2 1/2 month break. Y(^o^)Y
well, its already been about half a week since my the last day of class and i find things monotonously hectic. Class might be over but I still need to work to cover my hefty expenses and a hopefully-soon-to-be holiday trip with the fellars.
Strangely enough, theres still something bugging me since last Thursday..and I still don't know what It is. Dammit. Get the f*ck outta my head!
Apologies for my randomness but I can't think properly now and i still hv to go to work tomorow. T.T *sighs*
Time for bed.
of..
a 2 1/2 month break. Y(^o^)Y
well, its already been about half a week since my the last day of class and i find things monotonously hectic. Class might be over but I still need to work to cover my hefty expenses and a hopefully-soon-to-be holiday trip with the fellars.
Strangely enough, theres still something bugging me since last Thursday..and I still don't know what It is. Dammit. Get the f*ck outta my head!
Apologies for my randomness but I can't think properly now and i still hv to go to work tomorow. T.T *sighs*
Time for bed.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
its been a while
I look back at time, thinking about how i spent the passing months.. I certainly did start with a spark, a hunger for success.. my spirit roaring to overcome any challenge I would had faced.
Now, I'm left with a dim light, struggling to stay alight.. I've confused my priorities, strayed from the chosen path. Don't get me wrong, its not like I regretted everything I ever did for this whole time but I feel that I could have done it better.
My finals are coming right up soon... I pray that I would be able to renew that sense of hunger in me again.
Now, I'm left with a dim light, struggling to stay alight.. I've confused my priorities, strayed from the chosen path. Don't get me wrong, its not like I regretted everything I ever did for this whole time but I feel that I could have done it better.
My finals are coming right up soon... I pray that I would be able to renew that sense of hunger in me again.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
ugh
Was supposed to work today but ended up staying at home due to food poisoning. How a plate of maggi mee goreng and teh ais could end up screwing my day(s) :(
This is by far the worse experience of food poisoning i ever had.. vomiting every now and then, frequent visits to the toilet coupled by nausea and a fever.
Sighh.. just when I thought I would be eating bubur lambuk or ayam percik in the ramadan bazaar by now...
This is by far the worse experience of food poisoning i ever had.. vomiting every now and then, frequent visits to the toilet coupled by nausea and a fever.
Sighh.. just when I thought I would be eating bubur lambuk or ayam percik in the ramadan bazaar by now...
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
daily rants
Made a visit to the starbucks store in pyramid, well naturally it was pretty busy. Anyways, there were these 3 ppl who were occupying the table right next to me.. damn they were loud -.- ..well I had no choice but to listen about what they were talking about too. It was ok in the start with normal convo topics like work etc etc.. then they started to bitch about people.. who had this affair with another person bla bla bla.. and what caught my ears was what the guy in the next table said who I presumed was trying to impress his 2 female co-workers. He talked about starbucks.. complained and bitched about how the baristas would try to sell the whole store to them with their up-selling methods.. well I don't really blame him.. It is quite annoying. Then my fellow readers..he talked about the drinks. First he begun to "explain" the descriptions and the methods used to make the drinks.
Below are the terms the guy used in his effort to try to impress his female co-workers
1) "Expesso" ( actually called espresso )
Well..this is a general mistake by non-coffee connoisseurs but his pronunciations were hilarious. Expesso, according to the man..is coffee in small cups..well yea theres a truth to that.
I wonder what u call coffee in big cups.. giant expesso?
2) "whipped cream expesso" ( espresso con Pana)
Coffee in small cups with whipped cream
3) Dripped coffee (nothing wrong)
well at least he got something right ;)
4) Latte macchiato ( nothing wrong either, although its called caramel macchiato in starbux)
Pour hot milk with vanilla into a cup, then pour a cup of Expesso on top. Top with caramel.
Ask the barista for more caramel to get more value for ur drink. (~.~ Sugar rush anyone?)
Well thats all i'm gonna write... he said some other stuff too but they are just simply too ridiculous..
Below are the terms the guy used in his effort to try to impress his female co-workers
1) "Expesso" ( actually called espresso )
Well..this is a general mistake by non-coffee connoisseurs but his pronunciations were hilarious. Expesso, according to the man..is coffee in small cups..well yea theres a truth to that.
I wonder what u call coffee in big cups.. giant expesso?
2) "whipped cream expesso" ( espresso con Pana)
Coffee in small cups with whipped cream
3) Dripped coffee (nothing wrong)
well at least he got something right ;)
4) Latte macchiato ( nothing wrong either, although its called caramel macchiato in starbux)
Pour hot milk with vanilla into a cup, then pour a cup of Expesso on top. Top with caramel.
Ask the barista for more caramel to get more value for ur drink. (~.~ Sugar rush anyone?)
Well thats all i'm gonna write... he said some other stuff too but they are just simply too ridiculous..
Sunday, September 02, 2007
merdeka!
I have never felt so patriotic in the past few years in my life before..lols, I joined some museum sleepover which was really fun. The only thing i regretted was to fall asleep when fern's friends went to wreak havoc in the museum. Darn~
We went to Merdeka square and shouted out merdeka songs and had to hear boring speeches for bout an hour -.-|| but it was worth it coz the fireworks display was amazing.. by malaysian standards of course. I'll let the pics do the talking..so Happy 50th Merdeka!
We went to Merdeka square and shouted out merdeka songs and had to hear boring speeches for bout an hour -.-|| but it was worth it coz the fireworks display was amazing.. by malaysian standards of course. I'll let the pics do the talking..so Happy 50th Merdeka!
Friday, August 24, 2007
another one?
Was feeling quite hungry today, chicken rice in carrefour really didn't satisfy my appetite.. I desired for more meat, and there I was with Chin in KFC looking at the menu board for some meat..something which fulfills my carnivorous desires and considerably light since I had a full blown meal a moment ago. Well as the malaysian readers should know that kfc always comes up with these new promotions which I can say..totally sux and unfulfillable.
Chicken Poopers was what they called it and in the menu it looked big and seemed to be the perfect item. The sad truth is that it was 5 small miserable fried chicken balls which were dry and tasted and looked like miniature meatballs which I could buy from the food court for half the price.
When is kfc ever gonna learn?
Chicken Poopers was what they called it and in the menu it looked big and seemed to be the perfect item. The sad truth is that it was 5 small miserable fried chicken balls which were dry and tasted and looked like miniature meatballs which I could buy from the food court for half the price.
When is kfc ever gonna learn?
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Saturday, August 18, 2007
sigh
Complacency is starting to get the better of me. Instead of being grateful of my surroundings, my life and my loved ones.. I've become rather bitter and emo-ish. I hope this break will give me some time to relax for a change.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
lol
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nicked it from my baby's blog ..xD
Thursday, August 09, 2007
new hairdo
Before
AfterI got myself new haircut! after months of keeping my hair long.. i finally chopped it off.
well...to ppl who know me long enough.. well.. this ain't new, i've always looked the same with short hair =..=
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Fuck it
you know, i wish to believe..i want to believe that everything is fine..
but i'm just feeling plain insecure inside coz your not treating me the way u treat me anymore..i don't know if its just me or its just u.. but this doubt in me is just growing with each passing day.
And yes i fucking hate this feeling.. jealousy? nah.. it all just goes into a destroyed sense of self confidence.. I don't need anyone to tell me the bloody truth.. i know i can't do shit to save anyones pathetic existence.
you know sometimes, i think that something is happening behind my back.. yes i think too fucking much.. but I can't help it..i'm human not a saint. The phrase what goes around comes around keeps bloody spinning in my skull like a fucking disease. By the tone of this post.. u the readers shud know that i am pissed and depressed. So excuse my fuckin language coz i give no quarters to ur fuckin welfare or concerns.
Damn i feel better now, got it outta my head.. but this doesn't mean i'm over it..this means I am taking a bloody break from thinking too much, no wonder I hv so much white hair.
Bah..
but i'm just feeling plain insecure inside coz your not treating me the way u treat me anymore..i don't know if its just me or its just u.. but this doubt in me is just growing with each passing day.
And yes i fucking hate this feeling.. jealousy? nah.. it all just goes into a destroyed sense of self confidence.. I don't need anyone to tell me the bloody truth.. i know i can't do shit to save anyones pathetic existence.
you know sometimes, i think that something is happening behind my back.. yes i think too fucking much.. but I can't help it..i'm human not a saint. The phrase what goes around comes around keeps bloody spinning in my skull like a fucking disease. By the tone of this post.. u the readers shud know that i am pissed and depressed. So excuse my fuckin language coz i give no quarters to ur fuckin welfare or concerns.
Damn i feel better now, got it outta my head.. but this doesn't mean i'm over it..this means I am taking a bloody break from thinking too much, no wonder I hv so much white hair.
Bah..
Saturday, August 04, 2007
hrmm?
Sigh..spending the last few hours thinking alone.. wonder if everything is in fact all right.. i miss her.. she hasn't called yet, maybe shes busy. The dreams I had were nerve wreaking.. I feel really depressed. Haven't had this feeling for a long time.. the feeling that I might lose someone I really love.
Messaged and called her, shes with her friends.. I guess I won't get to see her after all today...
Its funny how my music list coincides with how i feel right now.. currently listening to
lifehouse: you and me
what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I really want to see her.. but I don't want her to see me in this condition....remnants of the flown tears still evident.. don't want her to worry.. I just wish I nvr had that dream..
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Messaged and called her, shes with her friends.. I guess I won't get to see her after all today...
Its funny how my music list coincides with how i feel right now.. currently listening to
lifehouse: you and me
what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I really want to see her.. but I don't want her to see me in this condition....remnants of the flown tears still evident.. don't want her to worry.. I just wish I nvr had that dream..
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A tiring and confusing feeling
Seems to be like a routine now, the same thing everyday.. not that I don't enjoy it but it gets really tiring when u reach a certain time or stage. I need a new place to relax myself, i need to find a secluded place where i can just relax myself. Well I can't think of any places like that in SJ..its kinda rare..sigh
Theres something else bothering me or rather some thoughts are bothering me, and I'm afraid..
afraid of losing someone I hold dearly in my heart. I might just be thinking too much but every time i look at her..she seems unhappy.. the reasons remain obscure. I would do anything in my limits to make her truly happy.. coz seeing her sad makes me feel really depressed.. whats even more depressing is the fact that I don;t know if her smiles are for real.. hide ur sadness with a smile?
I hope things would improve in time..I can just hope..
Theres something else bothering me or rather some thoughts are bothering me, and I'm afraid..
afraid of losing someone I hold dearly in my heart. I might just be thinking too much but every time i look at her..she seems unhappy.. the reasons remain obscure. I would do anything in my limits to make her truly happy.. coz seeing her sad makes me feel really depressed.. whats even more depressing is the fact that I don;t know if her smiles are for real.. hide ur sadness with a smile?
I hope things would improve in time..I can just hope..
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Busy
Been pretty busy lately with work and studies.. undone research and tutorials still await me.. argh. I need a long break @.@ ..
Monday, July 09, 2007
Monday, July 02, 2007
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
It all started
It all started then, the beginning of us.. from the familiar creeks of the store door.. to the first sight of your smile.. I still remember vividly how sweet that smile was.. the sweetest smile I had ever seen.. it was as if I saw an angel.. an angel which was smiling at me, my heart galloped with anxiety, heart beats getting faster. heh.. of course I did the trademark " hello there " and went on to take her order, but it seems like it was my lucky day, she asked for vacancies. Without a single doubt in my mind, I practically dragged my supervisor so we could get the "audition process" on right away..well its basically something me and my supervisor(saiful) did.. if they weren't pretty enough or " cio " they would be greeted with a simple answer which would be " sorry, we are not hiring" haha..well pretty discriminative but hey.. at least we were polite. Without say, she passed..I would be out of my mind and turn myself to a gay if I said we were not hiring. Created a conversation with her with surprising ease..we just clicked xD.. (Note: I still remember clearly..how u donned the cap on my head playfully when i placed it on the table, to u it might not be anything important but to me..it was a significant moment, I fell for you) To cut the long story short.. she got hired, to my delight of course x)
With a blink of an eye.. it was January.. more exactly the 22nd of January, she was working the night shift and I stayed back x) . Gave her a lil surprise and she sent me a sms which i still hv in my phone till today.. she liked the gift and that was the most important thing that mattered to me. Actually i was planning to buy her bunny ears but I had logic..how in the world can you impress a girl with bunny ears? so i bought her something else instead which I can proudly say she still wears till today =) .
As time passed by, we grew closer, our bonds strengthened. The memories of the bittersweet feelings enveloping still remains strongly etched in my heart. The painful feeling of not being able to be with someone I loved and the enlightening feeling of having her beside me, even though as friends, it was suffice.. for I was able to share her joys, see her smile and laugh. x)
It was not until that fateful night, under the stars, where I made my feelings clear. I cared for her..I loved her then.. I love her now..sometimes i wish there was something greater than the word love coz merely loving her is a understatement to what I had felt that night and what I feel now which is much more than the simple phrase of " I love you "
As of now, I'm as happy as I can ever be, I have a caring and a supportive family, I got loyal friends and I got an affectionate and lasting soul mate [ dats my baby x) ] And i thank God for that..i really do.. I pray that everyone I know is happy, I pray for their safety, and I pray for their success.
Gonna end this post now..hehe..
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With a blink of an eye.. it was January.. more exactly the 22nd of January, she was working the night shift and I stayed back x) . Gave her a lil surprise and she sent me a sms which i still hv in my phone till today.. she liked the gift and that was the most important thing that mattered to me. Actually i was planning to buy her bunny ears but I had logic..how in the world can you impress a girl with bunny ears? so i bought her something else instead which I can proudly say she still wears till today =) .
As time passed by, we grew closer, our bonds strengthened. The memories of the bittersweet feelings enveloping still remains strongly etched in my heart. The painful feeling of not being able to be with someone I loved and the enlightening feeling of having her beside me, even though as friends, it was suffice.. for I was able to share her joys, see her smile and laugh. x)
It was not until that fateful night, under the stars, where I made my feelings clear. I cared for her..I loved her then.. I love her now..sometimes i wish there was something greater than the word love coz merely loving her is a understatement to what I had felt that night and what I feel now which is much more than the simple phrase of " I love you "
As of now, I'm as happy as I can ever be, I have a caring and a supportive family, I got loyal friends and I got an affectionate and lasting soul mate [ dats my baby x) ] And i thank God for that..i really do.. I pray that everyone I know is happy, I pray for their safety, and I pray for their success.
Gonna end this post now..hehe..
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Sunshine
Went through a rough patch last week, things seem to be getting better.. thank god for that.
"My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness" Tenzin Gyatso (The Dalai Lama)
"Let go of anger, let go of pride. When you are bound by nothing, you go beyond sorrow" The Dhammapada
Do not accept anything simply because it has been said by your teacher, or because it has been written in your sacred book, or because it has been believed by many, or because it has been handed down by your ancestors. Accept and live only according to what will en-able you to see truth face to face. The Buddha
There is no Truth in this world other than the Truth of our hearts. w.s (yep..its my creation)
"My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness" Tenzin Gyatso (The Dalai Lama)
"Let go of anger, let go of pride. When you are bound by nothing, you go beyond sorrow" The Dhammapada
"Why do what you will regret?
Why bring tears upon yourself?
Do only what you do not regret
And fill yourself with joy"
The DhammapadaDo not accept anything simply because it has been said by your teacher, or because it has been written in your sacred book, or because it has been believed by many, or because it has been handed down by your ancestors. Accept and live only according to what will en-able you to see truth face to face. The Buddha
There is no Truth in this world other than the Truth of our hearts. w.s (yep..its my creation)
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Phrases
" I wish my lawn was so emo it would cut itself " not that I hv a lawn buts its a cool idea.
" I wish to exercise my constitutional rights to not give a fuck "
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" I wish to exercise my constitutional rights to not give a fuck "
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sigh
Months have passed, I've kinda developed this unwanted character of being too sensitive over small things.. thinking too much over small incidents, getting pissed or emo over some friendly teasing and actions. Thoughts randomly appearing in my mind, burdening me with my negative interpretation of things.
Probably I'm feeling insecure or weak..well I don't like this feeling.. anyone wouldn't like this feeling. The feeling of being in a position where you can lose everything in a blink of an eye. Thats probably why I work so hard spend so much time to maintain what I have now.. but I'm getting tired..really tired of of trying..tired of worrying..
I really wonder at times whether my efforts and sacrifices were worth it.. coz I don't see any rewards and improvements. Like a phrase I once read " Whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap " (Galatians IV). The truth of the phrase is undeniable but I can't definitely say if it applies to me coz efforts that I have made has ended up in frustrations.
Probably I'm feeling insecure or weak..well I don't like this feeling.. anyone wouldn't like this feeling. The feeling of being in a position where you can lose everything in a blink of an eye. Thats probably why I work so hard spend so much time to maintain what I have now.. but I'm getting tired..really tired of of trying..tired of worrying..
I really wonder at times whether my efforts and sacrifices were worth it.. coz I don't see any rewards and improvements. Like a phrase I once read " Whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap " (Galatians IV). The truth of the phrase is undeniable but I can't definitely say if it applies to me coz efforts that I have made has ended up in frustrations.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Dim lights
Dimmed lights.. cold winds slapping my face, an endless stream of thoughts swirling up. Thoughts of the past, present and future making its silent greetings. A stark reminder of the journey ahead.
My mind is in doubt, my spirit in agony, my body in pain.
My mind is in doubt, my spirit in agony, my body in pain.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Thursday, June 14, 2007
don't know what went wrong..
A new day begins, a glorious beam of life shone upon me. Envisioning a great adventure ahead, I rise. I rise to the many challenges ahead of me. I rise to the fate that I acknowledge and accept.
A journey full of perils await me. Dark clouds begin to amass with each step I take. A moist wind envelops me, giving hints of an oncoming storm. Gathering my pace, I hurry to the station, a mere stop to my true destination. Birds flock in a chaotic mess of directions, a glimpse of lightning, a sound of thunder marked the start of what would be a tribulation that I will come to face and endure for the rest of the diurnal course.
A watery outburst pours upon me. Drenched to the bones, my spirit dwindles. Hoping and praying for a glimmer of hope. I persevered. Eventually the bus arrived, cold jets of air from the air-condition didn't really help in alleviating my condition.
Ultimately, I arrived at my true destination. My soul revitalized with the sight of my dearest dame. Oblivious to the passing hours, I relish to the fact that I'm right beside her. Having her in my arms. A feeling unparalleled by anything existing in this world.
A harbinger of grief arrives. With incomparable ease he ruin my single moment of happiness. Loneliness sweeping up from the dark cold depths, inviting what seems to be a troubling and heavy feeling of despair.
And so..my day ends with..a feverish body.. a troubled mind..
A journey full of perils await me. Dark clouds begin to amass with each step I take. A moist wind envelops me, giving hints of an oncoming storm. Gathering my pace, I hurry to the station, a mere stop to my true destination. Birds flock in a chaotic mess of directions, a glimpse of lightning, a sound of thunder marked the start of what would be a tribulation that I will come to face and endure for the rest of the diurnal course.
A watery outburst pours upon me. Drenched to the bones, my spirit dwindles. Hoping and praying for a glimmer of hope. I persevered. Eventually the bus arrived, cold jets of air from the air-condition didn't really help in alleviating my condition.
Ultimately, I arrived at my true destination. My soul revitalized with the sight of my dearest dame. Oblivious to the passing hours, I relish to the fact that I'm right beside her. Having her in my arms. A feeling unparalleled by anything existing in this world.
A harbinger of grief arrives. With incomparable ease he ruin my single moment of happiness. Loneliness sweeping up from the dark cold depths, inviting what seems to be a troubling and heavy feeling of despair.
And so..my day ends with..a feverish body.. a troubled mind..
Monday, June 04, 2007
Addiction
I have a confession.
I have an addiction.
Why... why are u so tempting?...ugh..
Never ever thought I would start..
Not in a right mind would i have ever thought about it..
Temptation after temptation..i finally gave in..
*Heroes is the nicest series I had ever watched *
xD
currently on ep 12 ..11 more eps hehehe
I have an addiction.
Why... why are u so tempting?...ugh..
Never ever thought I would start..
Not in a right mind would i have ever thought about it..
Temptation after temptation..i finally gave in..
*Heroes is the nicest series I had ever watched *
xD
currently on ep 12 ..11 more eps hehehe
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
When shes missing
A quiet weekend awaits me.. will miss her :'| At least there is a small consolation of watching pirates 3 this Friday. I heard its good..but we'll see soon enough.
Monday, May 28, 2007
:o
You Are the Ace of Diamonds |
 You are a lucky person, and you always seem to find yourself surrounds by pretty, shiny things. You have a knack for success and money - though your skills can't really be learned or taught. You shine in a room, and you a have a truly sparkling personality. A true extrovert, you always are able to share a witty joke or the latest scandalous gossip. While you do have an eye for bling, you are also quite generous. A lot of wealth and luck comes your way. And you're not afraid to pass it on. A gamble you should take: Sports betting Your friends would describe you as: Captivating Your enemies would describe you as: Greedy If you lived in Vegas, you would be: A trophy wife or husband |
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Fried chicken
Cooked up a disaster.. damned chicken taste like shit.. took me 1 hour and a lot of sauce to eat 4 pieces of chicken..bloody bricks..ugh
Friday, May 25, 2007
feelings
An unscrupulous nocturnal feeling of sadness engulfs me,
A dark fire sweeping through the depths of my heart.
I feel sad.
Unexplained reasons and excuses seem to barrage my mind bringing it to the brink of insanity.
I can't explain it. I can't comprehend it. I don't understand.
Helpless...
A dark fire sweeping through the depths of my heart.
I feel sad.
Unexplained reasons and excuses seem to barrage my mind bringing it to the brink of insanity.
I can't explain it. I can't comprehend it. I don't understand.
Helpless...
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
hahaha damn cool
http://sites.gizoogle.com/index2.php?url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.browniethebrownmonster.blogspot.com%2F
stole the link from veng soon hehehe
stole the link from veng soon hehehe
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
More pics
---------------------- In the corkscrew-----------------
----------- The look on Amar's face..priceless ahaha-------------
-----------Hadey covering himself.. lols---------------
Thats all for now..lazy to upload adi la..i'll upload when i'm free
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Store trip to Genting
Had a great time in Genting Highlands. Almost all of the people from the store came but unfortunately some didn't due to certain circumstances. The day started out for me before the dawn of the first glimpse of sunlight. Woke up at 6.10am..thanks to the sweet melancholy of my dearie's voice. As usual, I took a long time to prepare and made Amar wait almost 20 minutes in the car :x At about 7.30 everyone was present at the store and we helped open the store. It felt really nice with everyone there and helping out. We embarked for Genting Higlands which will surely be filled with happy and exciting memories. Won't say much..i'll let the pics do the talking.
will post more pics next time
will post more pics next time
Friday, May 18, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Blurgh
The trips this Saturday....morning... I wonder how am i gonna be able to wake up at 6am++ and reach the store by 7am. = s Don't get me wrong though, I'm excited about this trip.. my first store trip and it will prob be a long long long time before we ever go for another one.
Anyway.. today didn't really start off really well, probably because of the overwhelming feeling of anxiety experienced yesterday and the worst beef ribs i had ever eaten in TgiFridays. The meat was basically over-cooked. It was dry and the bbq sauce didn't really help either...but i love beef..craving for it right now..but not those ribs anymore..ugh.. Woke up in the morning with a stomach ache and threw up a few times. Fuck u beef ribs -.-!! .. reached college in time for the maths B test and threw up again in the toilet right b4 taking the test. With the taste of acidified teh ais i just had b4 and other nasty tasting liquids on my tongue, i braced my self for the confusion I was about to go through. The test wasn't hard..my mind just couldn't concentrate..scents of puke still lingered which made me wanna puke more. The 1st half an hour of the 1 hour test passed by with me thinking about the food I ate yesterday night..definitely not the best of thoughts.. solved 4 and a half questions with 25 minutes left..not bad ei? (the test only had 5 questions) The day passed by like a breeze but it was a pleasant one nonetheless as i was able to meet up with my special half :D ..her internet is down..so no web cam chats for a few days.. :/
O yahhh... some ppl from the Campus magazine took a picture of me..holding their paper and a sweet.. talk about advertising -.- , but i'm happy though hehehe..
Anyway.. today didn't really start off really well, probably because of the overwhelming feeling of anxiety experienced yesterday and the worst beef ribs i had ever eaten in TgiFridays. The meat was basically over-cooked. It was dry and the bbq sauce didn't really help either...but i love beef..craving for it right now..but not those ribs anymore..ugh.. Woke up in the morning with a stomach ache and threw up a few times. Fuck u beef ribs -.-!! .. reached college in time for the maths B test and threw up again in the toilet right b4 taking the test. With the taste of acidified teh ais i just had b4 and other nasty tasting liquids on my tongue, i braced my self for the confusion I was about to go through. The test wasn't hard..my mind just couldn't concentrate..scents of puke still lingered which made me wanna puke more. The 1st half an hour of the 1 hour test passed by with me thinking about the food I ate yesterday night..definitely not the best of thoughts.. solved 4 and a half questions with 25 minutes left..not bad ei? (the test only had 5 questions) The day passed by like a breeze but it was a pleasant one nonetheless as i was able to meet up with my special half :D ..her internet is down..so no web cam chats for a few days.. :/
O yahhh... some ppl from the Campus magazine took a picture of me..holding their paper and a sweet.. talk about advertising -.- , but i'm happy though hehehe..
Saturday, May 12, 2007
finally its ere..the fucked up day!
Fucked up day- a day which all hell breaks lose and fucks up every single thing that you do.
Its been a particularly bad day..which started with a heated conversation with a complete brainless taxi driver as soon as I woke up.
taxi driver: where to turn into the condominium?
me: turn left into the road at the Shell station and go straight until u see a condominium ( which is the 1st and only condominium you see in the area)
taxi: where is the shell station?
me: opposite giant
taxi: opposite giant? lembah etc etc ( i dunno wtf he is saying)
me: just turn into the shell station road.
taxi :are u sure?
me: yea i'm sure
taxi: (pausing for a moment) are u really sure?
me:yes just turn into the road... *pissed off* ( i fucking live in the fucking place, of course i am fucking sure!)
taxi: oh..why nvr tell me earlier..
me: i did tell u -..-!!
these taxi drivers really piss me off..just fuck off and die la u brainless dicks.. don't blame me..i can't stand talking to retarded ppl when i wake up.
Nothing could have prepared me for what I was gonna go through later on. My girl finally reached..and i thought it was gonna be a relaxing few hours b4 we make it back to the store for the pictionary activity. Bamm..something comes smashing through ur nerves, air-cond service man comes and I'm suppose to stay back? wtf...i am nvr gonna fuckin stay back for these shitty house affairs again. I simply don;t hv the time and patience to do all this. If my girl wasn't there..i would hv blown my top..shouting at every single person i see. Profanities would hv come out like a bloody machine gun loaded with fuck bullets. I persevered..thx to my girl.. and i made her day a shitty one too.. she could hv just stayed home or went to the store and enjoy herself but i guess i disappointed her..
I missed the pictionary i guess.. had to settle the servicing stuff b4 i could leave. I hate it when ppl leave their responsibilities to other ppl. Then..i received a msg from an ex-co worker.. don;t wanna comment on it.. but it just made me more pissed off. But..i had space for understanding..i just apologized..well if he is still pissed i dun really give a fuck now. To understand or not to understand its his problem.. its not my freaking responsibility to go there and play the stupid game. I hv more important things to settle.
Just when i thought it was all gonna be fine.. my father tells me that the room for the genting trip had been booked. I though to myself..well ok.. rm220 for a deluxe suite in a peak season, not bad right? no... it was not meant to be.. other plans for the lodging was apparently being handled by a another friend which happened to say that he couldn;t book a room in the hotels. Instead he just tells me that reservations had been placed for an apartment..yea ok..its my fault for that.. but i dun really give a shit.. I am NOt gonna fucking stay in RIA apartment after what i went through b4...I repeat.. NOT FUCKING StayinG in ria apartment.. so full stop.. who wants to stay in a hotel room come with me.. who wants to go to Ria..go ahead. I don't wanna argue about accommodation anymore so just make ur choices and choose.
Went to the newway karaoke buffet thingi jus now.. everything went fine..i was cranky at that point so i just ate all the way.. well sang a lil..shout to be exact.. released abit of stress built up.
thats all for today..just thinking about it makes me pissed.
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The genting trip is the K4 store trip for ur information.
p.s Dear..sorry for today.. definitely not one of my best of days. :(
Its been a particularly bad day..which started with a heated conversation with a complete brainless taxi driver as soon as I woke up.
taxi driver: where to turn into the condominium?
me: turn left into the road at the Shell station and go straight until u see a condominium ( which is the 1st and only condominium you see in the area)
taxi: where is the shell station?
me: opposite giant
taxi: opposite giant? lembah etc etc ( i dunno wtf he is saying)
me: just turn into the shell station road.
taxi :are u sure?
me: yea i'm sure
taxi: (pausing for a moment) are u really sure?
me:yes just turn into the road... *pissed off* ( i fucking live in the fucking place, of course i am fucking sure!)
taxi: oh..why nvr tell me earlier..
me: i did tell u -..-!!
these taxi drivers really piss me off..just fuck off and die la u brainless dicks.. don't blame me..i can't stand talking to retarded ppl when i wake up.
Nothing could have prepared me for what I was gonna go through later on. My girl finally reached..and i thought it was gonna be a relaxing few hours b4 we make it back to the store for the pictionary activity. Bamm..something comes smashing through ur nerves, air-cond service man comes and I'm suppose to stay back? wtf...i am nvr gonna fuckin stay back for these shitty house affairs again. I simply don;t hv the time and patience to do all this. If my girl wasn't there..i would hv blown my top..shouting at every single person i see. Profanities would hv come out like a bloody machine gun loaded with fuck bullets. I persevered..thx to my girl.. and i made her day a shitty one too.. she could hv just stayed home or went to the store and enjoy herself but i guess i disappointed her..
I missed the pictionary i guess.. had to settle the servicing stuff b4 i could leave. I hate it when ppl leave their responsibilities to other ppl. Then..i received a msg from an ex-co worker.. don;t wanna comment on it.. but it just made me more pissed off. But..i had space for understanding..i just apologized..well if he is still pissed i dun really give a fuck now. To understand or not to understand its his problem.. its not my freaking responsibility to go there and play the stupid game. I hv more important things to settle.
Just when i thought it was all gonna be fine.. my father tells me that the room for the genting trip had been booked. I though to myself..well ok.. rm220 for a deluxe suite in a peak season, not bad right? no... it was not meant to be.. other plans for the lodging was apparently being handled by a another friend which happened to say that he couldn;t book a room in the hotels. Instead he just tells me that reservations had been placed for an apartment..yea ok..its my fault for that.. but i dun really give a shit.. I am NOt gonna fucking stay in RIA apartment after what i went through b4...I repeat.. NOT FUCKING StayinG in ria apartment.. so full stop.. who wants to stay in a hotel room come with me.. who wants to go to Ria..go ahead. I don't wanna argue about accommodation anymore so just make ur choices and choose.
Went to the newway karaoke buffet thingi jus now.. everything went fine..i was cranky at that point so i just ate all the way.. well sang a lil..shout to be exact.. released abit of stress built up.
thats all for today..just thinking about it makes me pissed.
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The genting trip is the K4 store trip for ur information.
p.s Dear..sorry for today.. definitely not one of my best of days. :(
Monday, May 07, 2007
Muahahahahhahahahaha..i'm good looking ... feeling random now x)
1.Your name plus "ness"?
>>waisooness :S
2. Two feelings at the moment?
>>bored and tired
3. What are you listening to right now?
>>lara fabian -the dream within
4. Done anything you regret so far this week?
>>nothing i can recall..its monday for goodness sake..
5. Where are you right now?
>>home
6. The highlight of your week?
>>I whooped the physics test ass.. yea baby!
7. What are you craving to have right now?
>>my babe with me right now x)
8. Who were the last people you ate with?
>>parents
9. What are you scared of?
>>definitely not u hehe.. scared of wigs..Thou shalt Not bring me to a wig shop
10. Last movie you watched?
>>spiderman 3
11. Last song you sang out loud?
>>snow patrol-run
12. What is your heritage?
>>mongolian+cantonese+hokkien..basically chinese
13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
>>who else other than my babe? :D
14. Who is the last person you talked to?
>>my dad
15. Last thing you downloaded on your computer?
>>porn..ops no.. just finished dling a song xD
16. Have you changed much this year?
>>yea definitely..for the better I hope
17. Do you like to eat out?
>>not everyday
18. Do you like moms?
>>that just sounds wrong.. i don;t mind hot young moms haha..
19. Hug or kiss?
>>Both.. best things come in pairs
23. Who was the last person to text message you?
>>Digi..u hv 1 missed call..7th may ..uhur..
24. Where was the last place you went besides where you are?
>>Starbucks carrefour
25. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
>>yea i look like Justice Pao without the brown skin and moon on the forehead..not to mention the beard....i'm not lying but someone said i looked like a taiwanese celeb :O
26. Do you speak any other language other than English?
>>chinese..malay?
27. Last thing you watched on TV?
>>Dragon love..some old chinese tvb show my parents were watching
28. Do you dress for style or comfort?
>>comfort with style :P
29. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
>>I personally hv no idea...
30. Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
>>Hv I even been to Mexico?..downing shots of mexican tequila with a bunch of amigos..yea right..lol -.-
31. Whats the craziest thing you've ever done?
>>can't think of any..i've been crazy for the past few yrs of my life
32. Favorite color(s)?
>>white,light blue,black,shit green hehe..i don;t know what u call it..
33. What's ur favorite cereal character?
>>Tony or sumthin ->kellogs frosties..yeaaaa roaaaarrrrr..
34. What is ur favorite Michael Jackson song?
>>billy jean
35. Who do you love?
>>Fern<<
36. Any plans right now?
>>planning to make a plan
37. What are your plans for tonight?
>>planning to take over the world ..i feel fuckin lame outta sudden..yes i know what ur gonna say..so shh
38. What are you looking forward to tomorrow?
>>brand new day,waking up to the morning sun,friends,new and endless possibilities,a wonderful day, meeting my dear, hearing good news,success,eating..lalalala..and it goes on and on and on..
39. Last time you smiled?
>>I just did..wait..i smiled again xD
40. Who do u wanna be with right now?
>>I wanna beeeeee withhhhh myyy darrlllinggg lorrrr..dun make me repeat so many times can or not..
yea yea whatever..lalala
>>waisooness :S
2. Two feelings at the moment?
>>bored and tired
3. What are you listening to right now?
>>lara fabian -the dream within
4. Done anything you regret so far this week?
>>nothing i can recall..its monday for goodness sake..
5. Where are you right now?
>>home
6. The highlight of your week?
>>I whooped the physics test ass.. yea baby!
7. What are you craving to have right now?
>>my babe with me right now x)
8. Who were the last people you ate with?
>>parents
9. What are you scared of?
>>definitely not u hehe.. scared of wigs..Thou shalt Not bring me to a wig shop
10. Last movie you watched?
>>spiderman 3
11. Last song you sang out loud?
>>snow patrol-run
12. What is your heritage?
>>mongolian+cantonese+hokkien..basically chinese
13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
>>who else other than my babe? :D
14. Who is the last person you talked to?
>>my dad
15. Last thing you downloaded on your computer?
>>porn..ops no.. just finished dling a song xD
16. Have you changed much this year?
>>yea definitely..for the better I hope
17. Do you like to eat out?
>>not everyday
18. Do you like moms?
>>that just sounds wrong.. i don;t mind hot young moms haha..
19. Hug or kiss?
>>Both.. best things come in pairs
23. Who was the last person to text message you?
>>Digi..u hv 1 missed call..7th may ..uhur..
24. Where was the last place you went besides where you are?
>>Starbucks carrefour
25. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
>>yea i look like Justice Pao without the brown skin and moon on the forehead..not to mention the beard....i'm not lying but someone said i looked like a taiwanese celeb :O
26. Do you speak any other language other than English?
>>chinese..malay?
27. Last thing you watched on TV?
>>Dragon love..some old chinese tvb show my parents were watching
28. Do you dress for style or comfort?
>>comfort with style :P
29. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
>>I personally hv no idea...
30. Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
>>Hv I even been to Mexico?..downing shots of mexican tequila with a bunch of amigos..yea right..lol -.-
31. Whats the craziest thing you've ever done?
>>can't think of any..i've been crazy for the past few yrs of my life
32. Favorite color(s)?
>>white,light blue,black,shit green hehe..i don;t know what u call it..
33. What's ur favorite cereal character?
>>Tony or sumthin ->kellogs frosties..yeaaaa roaaaarrrrr..
34. What is ur favorite Michael Jackson song?
>>billy jean
35. Who do you love?
>>Fern<<
36. Any plans right now?
>>planning to make a plan
37. What are your plans for tonight?
>>planning to take over the world ..i feel fuckin lame outta sudden..yes i know what ur gonna say..so shh
38. What are you looking forward to tomorrow?
>>brand new day,waking up to the morning sun,friends,new and endless possibilities,a wonderful day, meeting my dear, hearing good news,success,eating..lalalala..and it goes on and on and on..
39. Last time you smiled?
>>I just did..wait..i smiled again xD
40. Who do u wanna be with right now?
>>I wanna beeeeee withhhhh myyy darrlllinggg lorrrr..dun make me repeat so many times can or not..
yea yea whatever..lalala
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Survey arrrr
Name one person who made you smile last night.
Fern :)
What were you doing at 8.00 this morning?
Sleeping with one eye opened looking at the clock
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Feeding my dogs
What was something that happened to you in 2006?
I met my darling :P
What is the last thing you said aloud?
WHATTTTTTTT?!?!?!?! (in cantonese)
How many different drinks that you drink today?
three.. water, ice lemon tea and black ice coffee
What colour is your hairbush?
Its a cheap comb which is worth about 1 buck..and yes..its orange coloured if ur wondering
What was the last thing you paid for?
2 large fries in King's pie
Where have you been last night?
Starbucks and then straight to home
What color is your front door?
Dark brown
Where do you keep your change?
In a A&W mug i confiscated xD
What was the weather like today?
Cold, wet and moody
What is the best ice-cream flavour?
Cookies and cream with choc chips
What is something you are excited about?
Chatting with my girl later
Do you want to cut your hair?
no
Are you over the age of 25?
does it even matter? i think i will still look the same -.-
Do you talk a lot?
depends on my mood
Do you watch the O.C?
erm.. stopped like...18923719273909 yrs ago
Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
why in the world would i want an x on my screen name?
Do you know anyone named Steven?
yup.
Do you make your own words?
Yea when i try to cover up xD
Are you typically a jealous person?
think so
Name a friend who's name starts with the letter "A":
Aaron morris, Ammar, Adrian, Alex, Awang(zek)..ehehehe
Name a friend who's name starts with the letter "K"
Kin eu, kenny , Kc
Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
Fern =P
What did the last message you received say?
ermm..Whats the number for the astro acc?
Do you chew on your straw?
yup
Do you have curly hair?
yup..right down there *evil grin*
Where is the next place you're going?
kitchen
Who is the rudest person in your life?
erm.. no one apparently..hell..i'm rude.. so i dun give a damn :D
What is the last thing you ate?
King's pie fries
Is marriage in your future?
Of course :D I wanna marry my dearie x)
What is the best movie you've seen in the last 2 weeks?
last 2 weeks?..more like..exactly 1 month ago.. which was 300
IS there anyone you like right now?
Do I even need to say it out?
When was the last time you did the dishes. Be honest.
Yesterday night
Are you currently depressed?
no
Why did you answer and post this survey?
coz i;m fuckinnnn boreeeeedddd xD
Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
Fern, chin, cheek.. aiya... all oso almost tag finish..cipets..
BTW i wassss employee of the month..it was just not an official competition!!!
Fern :)
What were you doing at 8.00 this morning?
Sleeping with one eye opened looking at the clock
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Feeding my dogs
What was something that happened to you in 2006?
I met my darling :P
What is the last thing you said aloud?
WHATTTTTTTT?!?!?!?! (in cantonese)
How many different drinks that you drink today?
three.. water, ice lemon tea and black ice coffee
What colour is your hairbush?
Its a cheap comb which is worth about 1 buck..and yes..its orange coloured if ur wondering
What was the last thing you paid for?
2 large fries in King's pie
Where have you been last night?
Starbucks and then straight to home
What color is your front door?
Dark brown
Where do you keep your change?
In a A&W mug i confiscated xD
What was the weather like today?
Cold, wet and moody
What is the best ice-cream flavour?
Cookies and cream with choc chips
What is something you are excited about?
Chatting with my girl later
Do you want to cut your hair?
no
Are you over the age of 25?
does it even matter? i think i will still look the same -.-
Do you talk a lot?
depends on my mood
Do you watch the O.C?
erm.. stopped like...18923719273909 yrs ago
Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
why in the world would i want an x on my screen name?
Do you know anyone named Steven?
yup.
Do you make your own words?
Yea when i try to cover up xD
Are you typically a jealous person?
think so
Name a friend who's name starts with the letter "A":
Aaron morris, Ammar, Adrian, Alex, Awang(zek)..ehehehe
Name a friend who's name starts with the letter "K"
Kin eu, kenny , Kc
Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
Fern =P
What did the last message you received say?
ermm..Whats the number for the astro acc?
Do you chew on your straw?
yup
Do you have curly hair?
yup..right down there *evil grin*
Where is the next place you're going?
kitchen
Who is the rudest person in your life?
erm.. no one apparently..hell..i'm rude.. so i dun give a damn :D
What is the last thing you ate?
King's pie fries
Is marriage in your future?
Of course :D I wanna marry my dearie x)
What is the best movie you've seen in the last 2 weeks?
last 2 weeks?..more like..exactly 1 month ago.. which was 300
IS there anyone you like right now?
Do I even need to say it out?
When was the last time you did the dishes. Be honest.
Yesterday night
Are you currently depressed?
no
Why did you answer and post this survey?
coz i;m fuckinnnn boreeeeedddd xD
Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
Fern, chin, cheek.. aiya... all oso almost tag finish..cipets..
BTW i wassss employee of the month..it was just not an official competition!!!
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Fine day, not good..just fine
Like a tingling spider sense, I abruptly woke up today feeling rather afraid... a fearsome image of
something which will decide how my day will go. For a moment, I prayed and hoped as hard as I
could that I would not repeat the same mistake that I really regretted.. as I reached out for "it"
my mind and heart squirmed in anticipation of what I would see. As my hands crept closer and
closer.. I could feel my heart beat with an almost erratic sequence, cold sweet begun to develop
on my forehead.. the die is cast..the moment of truth had arrived..
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...(heart beating wild)
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...
...
...(beating wilder)
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...
...
...
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I'M NOT LATE FOR CLASSSSSSS!!!!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO XD
Just curious..what were u all thinking? xD
I grabbed my clock and looked at it and it showed 7.50am and my class starts at 8.30am.. since the ride to college only took about 15-20 minutes I was sure that I would make it on time. hehehe..
Anyways..today was a pretty nice day, did some cam-whoring with chin's cam and captured some pics.. and I think I need some good exercise to burn off this developing tummy of mine..hrmm hrmm..ok whatever..
something which will decide how my day will go. For a moment, I prayed and hoped as hard as I
could that I would not repeat the same mistake that I really regretted.. as I reached out for "it"
my mind and heart squirmed in anticipation of what I would see. As my hands crept closer and
closer.. I could feel my heart beat with an almost erratic sequence, cold sweet begun to develop
on my forehead.. the die is cast..the moment of truth had arrived..
...
...
...(heart beating wild)
...
...
...
...(beating wilder)
...
...
...
...
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
...
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I'M NOT LATE FOR CLASSSSSSS!!!!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO XD
Just curious..what were u all thinking? xD
I grabbed my clock and looked at it and it showed 7.50am and my class starts at 8.30am.. since the ride to college only took about 15-20 minutes I was sure that I would make it on time. hehehe..
Anyways..today was a pretty nice day, did some cam-whoring with chin's cam and captured some pics.. and I think I need some good exercise to burn off this developing tummy of mine..hrmm hrmm..ok whatever..
Sunday, March 25, 2007
worried..
Getting a bit worried now , can't help it but I am.. this post ain't doing any good either ..ahhhhh...going nuts..
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Life in college..again..
A tiring day would be the perfect words to sum up my day. A mix of an exciting, sweet & lovely and mostly boring day which is without any doubt from the long-winded speeches given by the lecturers.
Woke up to the sweet voice of my baby girl who called to wake me up. Thank goodness she called.. I guess i would hv waked up late if she didn't. Wuz late for the orientation coz i tersesat (lost) -.-!! I ended up walking to and from the Monash building to the
Sunway building 3 times in a row to find out where I was supposed to go. Finally found my way and I wuz half an hour late which was notttttttt my fault! they just gave me wrong directions -.-
Lined up to take the pic for my student card but wasted another half an hour just to find out that my information wasn't entered into the system database yet....yea....... so i lined up for fucks sake.
Finally finished everything and I met up with my girl to hv some snacks. The thai restaurant in subang parade is surprisingly good :o Try out their pineapple fried rice and tom yam bee hoon if you ever hv the chance to go there!
Had some pretty "good" luck back outside carrefour.. slipped and almost fell down 2 times in a row on the SAmE damn spot =.=", luckily i hitched a ride on Chin's car which saved me the trouble of sitting on the darned buses on a rainy day! thats alllllllll.........
Woke up to the sweet voice of my baby girl who called to wake me up. Thank goodness she called.. I guess i would hv waked up late if she didn't. Wuz late for the orientation coz i tersesat (lost) -.-!! I ended up walking to and from the Monash building to the
Sunway building 3 times in a row to find out where I was supposed to go. Finally found my way and I wuz half an hour late which was notttttttt my fault! they just gave me wrong directions -.-
Lined up to take the pic for my student card but wasted another half an hour just to find out that my information wasn't entered into the system database yet....yea....... so i lined up for fucks sake.
Finally finished everything and I met up with my girl to hv some snacks. The thai restaurant in subang parade is surprisingly good :o Try out their pineapple fried rice and tom yam bee hoon if you ever hv the chance to go there!
Had some pretty "good" luck back outside carrefour.. slipped and almost fell down 2 times in a row on the SAmE damn spot =.=", luckily i hitched a ride on Chin's car which saved me the trouble of sitting on the darned buses on a rainy day! thats alllllllll.........
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
A poem for you
When I close my eyes I see you,
I see you,
When I look into the sky,
I see you,
When I gaze upon the stars,
I see you..
Each song that I hear,
Reminds me of you,
Each verse I sing,
I sing for you,
Each song I search,
I think of you..
Why do I smile when I look at you?
For each smile i get from you
My heart jumps and my mind wanders, thinking of you
A soothing feeling of tranquility I get from you
Because I know..you love me..as I.. love you :)
For my girl who is really special to me :)
I see you,
When I look into the sky,
I see you,
When I gaze upon the stars,
I see you..
Each song that I hear,
Reminds me of you,
Each verse I sing,
I sing for you,
Each song I search,
I think of you..
Why do I smile when I look at you?
For each smile i get from you
My heart jumps and my mind wanders, thinking of you
A soothing feeling of tranquility I get from you
Because I know..you love me..as I.. love you :)
For my girl who is really special to me :)
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Excited? I don't think so..
I'm registering for Mufy 2morow.. thank god I only have to take 4 subjects which will be English Maths, moreeeee Maths, and physics ! NO CHEMISTRY! WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO!
YES! Joining mufy would mean that i totally wasted my time in SaM. Not a total lost though..at least i know what to expect and I don't need to do the bloody Lan subject again. XD
I'm not exactly feeling nervous about joining college again.. I've done it before and I guess it will pretty much be the same...except this time..i am gonna really devote myself to achieving excellent results.. say "No to Dota".. don't really need to do that coz I think I've finally got bored of the game to the point that I only play it about once or twice a week nowadays. *Prays to God* I hope there will be minimal distractions this time...
Visited my former high school today (smk ss17) .. things haven't changed that much compared to the last time I was there, btw the school sports t-shirt has changed and it is much much better now... at least they do something right there for once but it doesn't change the fact that the school still looks like a kindergarten with its pink layout. Saw some familiar faces there and the teachers still look like they did 2-3 yrs ago -.-" If you're wondering what I was doing there.. I was showing my babe around the school and some nostalgic places where I used to hang out. I cannot imagine myself doing form 6 there..the school feels so dead.. well that's what my girl wants to do but I'll support her in whatever she wants to do =D got that babe? I'm behind yea all the way!
YES! Joining mufy would mean that i totally wasted my time in SaM. Not a total lost though..at least i know what to expect and I don't need to do the bloody Lan subject again. XD
I'm not exactly feeling nervous about joining college again.. I've done it before and I guess it will pretty much be the same...except this time..i am gonna really devote myself to achieving excellent results.. say "No to Dota".. don't really need to do that coz I think I've finally got bored of the game to the point that I only play it about once or twice a week nowadays. *Prays to God* I hope there will be minimal distractions this time...
Visited my former high school today (smk ss17) .. things haven't changed that much compared to the last time I was there, btw the school sports t-shirt has changed and it is much much better now... at least they do something right there for once but it doesn't change the fact that the school still looks like a kindergarten with its pink layout. Saw some familiar faces there and the teachers still look like they did 2-3 yrs ago -.-" If you're wondering what I was doing there.. I was showing my babe around the school and some nostalgic places where I used to hang out. I cannot imagine myself doing form 6 there..the school feels so dead.. well that's what my girl wants to do but I'll support her in whatever she wants to do =D got that babe? I'm behind yea all the way!
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Ugh..
The damned flu virus is back again knocking on our doors, unfortunately for me...it came barging in and as a result I almost..almost got sick.. thank my lucky stars and a whole lot of pills i popped when the 1st symptoms came. As if things weren't bad enough I sprained my back again..GrRrrrrrrrrrr.. t(-.-)t Hopefully it heals in time for work 2morow...
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
lalalala
Worked in ss15 today, things were pretty busy @.@ aiya...learning audit 2morow.. I hope i dun kantoi..
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Saturday, February 17, 2007
another crap
Back home early today~ i'm bored so don't complain that this entry is boring :D ..i finally got my dumb astro installed after a few days of arguing with the astro dealers..damn those bastards, they jus luv wasting my time don't they? *evil smile* i subscribed for every existing channel there is to subscribe hehehehehehe.. hope my sis doesn't screw me upside down when she sees the bill xD
Bleah..my babe went to penang for Chinese New Year, =/ won't be seeing her for bout a few more days @.@..good thing she calls me now and then =P
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Been reading some magazines about the origins of Cny, well its a legend but a long long longggggggggggggggggg time ago there was this beast called the "Nian".. it was a ferocious monster which had a freakin big mouth that could swallow a great number of people with a single bite...talk about a big mouth.. then came an old man who wuz a immortal god in disguise..he challenged the monster "Nian" to swallow the other beasts of prey instead of people..well the monster took the bait and swallowed all the beasts and died with constipation..xD
The old man disappeared with the "Nian" and the people began to enjoy a more peaceful and productive life instead of a life where a beast would bite ur ass when u go to the loo. They didn't have toilets back then ok! =P so where else would u go other than the bushes~
The old man told the people to hang red paper decorations on their doors and windows on each year's end to scare away the "Nian" if it ever came back coz the beast didn't like red so if yea don't wanna get ur ass bitten wear red underwear!
"Guo Nian" as some of you may be familiar of.. means passing the year( direct translation) or celebrate the new year.. but it may mean " Surviving the Nian " which means surviving the attack of the beast.. so red colour deco's and firecrackers scare away the Nian which may be running around amok... but people now probably won't know the origins of Cny coz its way too old to be traced.. my story may be fabricated by some smart ass bitches who had nothing to do but write fake stories..
Ok lets talk about the Chinese Lunar calender..its a yearly calender with the start of it being based on the cycles of the moon. There are twelve years in a single cycle..each year representing a different zodiac..or an animal to make things easier.. it starts with the year of the rat followed by the ox, tiger, rabbit, dragon, snake, horse, sheep, monkey, rooster, dog and finally the boar/pig. This new year would be the year of boar/pig which would mean that the cycle would return to the year of the rat next year. Theres a legend that said that Lord Buddha summoned all the animals to come to him before he departed..and only the 12 animals listed above came to bid him farewell..so he named a year after each animal that had come according to the order which they had arrived. So the boar/pig being the most lazy one..came in last i guess ..ahaha..
Bleah..my babe went to penang for Chinese New Year, =/ won't be seeing her for bout a few more days @.@..good thing she calls me now and then =P
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Been reading some magazines about the origins of Cny, well its a legend but a long long longggggggggggggggggg time ago there was this beast called the "Nian".. it was a ferocious monster which had a freakin big mouth that could swallow a great number of people with a single bite...talk about a big mouth.. then came an old man who wuz a immortal god in disguise..he challenged the monster "Nian" to swallow the other beasts of prey instead of people..well the monster took the bait and swallowed all the beasts and died with constipation..xD
The old man disappeared with the "Nian" and the people began to enjoy a more peaceful and productive life instead of a life where a beast would bite ur ass when u go to the loo. They didn't have toilets back then ok! =P so where else would u go other than the bushes~
The old man told the people to hang red paper decorations on their doors and windows on each year's end to scare away the "Nian" if it ever came back coz the beast didn't like red so if yea don't wanna get ur ass bitten wear red underwear!
"Guo Nian" as some of you may be familiar of.. means passing the year( direct translation) or celebrate the new year.. but it may mean " Surviving the Nian " which means surviving the attack of the beast.. so red colour deco's and firecrackers scare away the Nian which may be running around amok... but people now probably won't know the origins of Cny coz its way too old to be traced.. my story may be fabricated by some smart ass bitches who had nothing to do but write fake stories..
Ok lets talk about the Chinese Lunar calender..its a yearly calender with the start of it being based on the cycles of the moon. There are twelve years in a single cycle..each year representing a different zodiac..or an animal to make things easier.. it starts with the year of the rat followed by the ox, tiger, rabbit, dragon, snake, horse, sheep, monkey, rooster, dog and finally the boar/pig. This new year would be the year of boar/pig which would mean that the cycle would return to the year of the rat next year. Theres a legend that said that Lord Buddha summoned all the animals to come to him before he departed..and only the 12 animals listed above came to bid him farewell..so he named a year after each animal that had come according to the order which they had arrived. So the boar/pig being the most lazy one..came in last i guess ..ahaha..
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
bleah..
Yea.. I'm home right now doing absolutely nothing, wanna know why? my girl had a date with her ex..wtf la.. i know they had some agreement to this valentines shit thingi but I never thought that I would be this jealous -.-". Jibai ex..he better stop bothering her after today coz I'm already on my last straw right now and anymore of this shit him I will totally make sure that today will be the last time he sees or talk to her. Yea I'm cruel..so what? love is cruel so BiTe me. Gonna see her later on for dinner i guess..
Since I'm in the mood for it.. I guess i'll just bitch on how annoying her ex is, he sends her sms like every 10 minutes or so and if she doesn't reply he calls her to ask why she didn't reply..FUCK OFF LA bitch! Does she need to tell u wherever she goes? GET A FUCKIN LIFE DUDE! SHE DUMPED U! get the gist of things and JUSt DISSAPEAR! and one thing that annoys me more.. shes just too soft on him... Just go cold turkey if u even care for his feelings... If he would resort to the tactic of telling her parents that I'm together with their daughter..i Don'T GIVE a FUCK! their parents can see me anytime, any day! Hell I might even be able to get along with her parents. -.-" Btw..i already made my necessary plans on how to confront her parents :D, 1st of all their parents already know my name and they didn't really made a fuss when i walk her back home every night.. I even greet them and if I ever have the chance I'll try to hv a lil convo with them...take that u sneaky bastard!
O yeah.. happy valentines day to all of you.. singles and couples alike.
(this pic is specially dedicated to her ex) =) well..at least I smiled right?
Since I'm in the mood for it.. I guess i'll just bitch on how annoying her ex is, he sends her sms like every 10 minutes or so and if she doesn't reply he calls her to ask why she didn't reply..FUCK OFF LA bitch! Does she need to tell u wherever she goes? GET A FUCKIN LIFE DUDE! SHE DUMPED U! get the gist of things and JUSt DISSAPEAR! and one thing that annoys me more.. shes just too soft on him... Just go cold turkey if u even care for his feelings... If he would resort to the tactic of telling her parents that I'm together with their daughter..i Don'T GIVE a FUCK! their parents can see me anytime, any day! Hell I might even be able to get along with her parents. -.-" Btw..i already made my necessary plans on how to confront her parents :D, 1st of all their parents already know my name and they didn't really made a fuss when i walk her back home every night.. I even greet them and if I ever have the chance I'll try to hv a lil convo with them...take that u sneaky bastard!
O yeah.. happy valentines day to all of you.. singles and couples alike.
(this pic is specially dedicated to her ex) =) well..at least I smiled right?
Monday, February 12, 2007
wooohoo
Really feel like the luckiest guy in the world hehe.. finally found someone that I can truly be with after all this while. She's hyper, cuteeeeeeeeeee & adorable :D and theres something special about her which makes me feel attracted to her :P ..i really want this relationship to work out..coz i have never been with someone in my life who could make me this happy before..really..i had girlfriends in the past and even though i loved em with all i got..they nvr really appreciated me and i often get heart broken...as sad as that may sound, i wouldn't have had dreamed of being her if i wuz still with my EXs. I am a loyal guy ok?! so lets bury the story about my past relationships because i honestly don't wanna think about em nor do i even want to ever mention them again. Its not that I hate my EXs but i honestly don't think i will ever be able to treat or talk to them the same way again.. u can't blame me for that because any man wouldn't wanna try to burn themselves again in the same place... ok i am talking cock now.. but I'll write whatever that makes ME..yess MEEEE ...whatever that makes me happy.
I had a kinda of a girl phobia going on after my last ex dumped me, yes she dumped me..i'm a fuckin sadcase right? yea fuck u ..fuck everyone~ coz i don't give a rats ass about it anymore.
That was until I met her, she was too cute to ignore.. her bubbly personality made my life brighter x)
Time passed by and i was being drawn into liking her more and more with each passing day..
ok i wanna go sleep now..so end of story.. the point of this blog is.. I freaking Love Her! even though there will be chances that my heart will be broke again but I'll take this big risk again. Darling..i luvvvv u sooooooooo much la...hais.. wtf man.. i am being emo now pula..
I had a kinda of a girl phobia going on after my last ex dumped me, yes she dumped me..i'm a fuckin sadcase right? yea fuck u ..fuck everyone~ coz i don't give a rats ass about it anymore.
That was until I met her, she was too cute to ignore.. her bubbly personality made my life brighter x)
Time passed by and i was being drawn into liking her more and more with each passing day..
ok i wanna go sleep now..so end of story.. the point of this blog is.. I freaking Love Her! even though there will be chances that my heart will be broke again but I'll take this big risk again. Darling..i luvvvv u sooooooooo much la...hais.. wtf man.. i am being emo now pula..
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
why..
My heart aches when i don't see you..my soul feels empty without ur presence, why.. your so close to me yet so far..so far away.. I've always been waiting for a chance to say that i really love you but do u feel the same way? How long must i endure this torment of not being able to say the words i really want to say to u? Sometimes i really feel like dying.. just to be able to feel that you really care for me...just for the warm touch of your hands, that innocent sweet smile of yours ..
For once i think i have finally found that special someone, please..don't crush this dream of mine, don't break my heart again..
For once i think i have finally found that special someone, please..don't crush this dream of mine, don't break my heart again..
Monday, February 05, 2007
man utd 4 spurs 0
It was a rather exciting match between man utd and spurs but it was kinda marred with some bad referring but who in the world cares? man utd wooped spurs ass silly, thats all that matters to me =D , but i hope van der saar's nose injury isn't that serious @.@.. btw guess who replaced vandersar..? it was none other than O Shea!!! LoL..
Sunday, February 04, 2007
=/
Everything seems fine..but its not now.. the closer we get, the more torn up I am inside.. from the first time i saw your smile to the last time i talked to u.. the unexplainable feeling of happiness and sadness twirled together which brings a feeling of helplessness in your presence. You know i like u.. but it isn't any use if you refuse to acknowledge these feelings, I'm sure you like me too..i can see it from the sparkle of your eyes but some things are and are not meant to be..
People say that being loved by the person you love brings you absolute happiness and joy to your life like never before, but do u know that it tears my heart when you can't love me the same way i love you.. i guess you won't know now..
How I wish you could be mine, feeling the warmth of your touch every time i see you, it feels like a soothing breeze of calmness sweeping through the depths of my soul. Now, your trying to mask those feeling you have for me with those for a brother.. how long must i wait? how long must i endure this torture?..never able to tell the truth of my feelings, i guess I'll hide these feelings in a masquerade of masks..hoping one day u'll understand how i feel for u
People say that being loved by the person you love brings you absolute happiness and joy to your life like never before, but do u know that it tears my heart when you can't love me the same way i love you.. i guess you won't know now..
How I wish you could be mine, feeling the warmth of your touch every time i see you, it feels like a soothing breeze of calmness sweeping through the depths of my soul. Now, your trying to mask those feeling you have for me with those for a brother.. how long must i wait? how long must i endure this torture?..never able to tell the truth of my feelings, i guess I'll hide these feelings in a masquerade of masks..hoping one day u'll understand how i feel for u
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