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People believe in a whole multitude of things, spirits for an example. To me, I believe in angels. I believe in a higher power. I believe in God. I believe in heaven and hell. Most of all, I believe in love. Love has done wonders in my life, it has brought me where I am right now. I feel lucky to love and be loved from God, my family, my friends and even my beloved dogs. And there's one thing I know for sure, I love you. From the first time i met you to the last time I saw you behind the bar in the store, I loved you. I have never felt so sure in my life. I'm not cheating to myself, I'm not disillusioning myself, I'm being honest to myself for I believe and feel with all my heart that I love you. Love is a wonderful thing I must say, it saves people from the deepest depths of darkness, gives them a second chance and even heals all the pain we might feel and suffer from.
I just want to say that I have found my angel. An angel which brings me back to my feet, an angel which loves me and cares for me tenderly with her embracing wings. That angel is you, Fern. But even angels have problems I must say, now, my angel is in pain..
If there was anything which could hurt me, it would be seeing you sad whilst I am not able to do anything to help. I think of you every day, every time.. I look at the empty seats and tables in the store and I see images of you.. smiling, happily giggling around. When I am with you, my day brightens up. Every time your not around, my eyes wander everywhere in hope of seeing you.. To be honest, I miss you. I'm sorry if I'm not being myself lately or even getting irritated for the slightest reasons. I truly am.



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