It all started

It all started then, the beginning of us.. from the familiar creeks of the store door.. to the first sight of your smile.. I still remember vividly how sweet that smile was.. the sweetest smile I had ever seen.. it was as if I saw an angel.. an angel which was smiling at me, my heart galloped with anxiety, heart beats getting faster. heh.. of course I did the trademark " hello there " and went on to take her order, but it seems like it was my lucky day, she asked for vacancies. Without a single doubt in my mind, I practically dragged my supervisor so we could get the "audition process" on right away..well its basically something me and my supervisor(saiful) did.. if they weren't pretty enough or " cio " they would be greeted with a simple answer which would be " sorry, we are not hiring" haha..well pretty discriminative but hey.. at least we were polite. Without say, she passed..I would be out of my mind and turn myself to a gay if I said we were not hiring. Created a conversation with her with surprising ease..we just clicked xD.. (Note: I still remember clearly..how u donned the cap on my head playfully when i placed it on the table, to u it might not be anything important but to me..it was a significant moment, I fell for you) To cut the long story short.. she got hired, to my delight of course x)
With a blink of an eye.. it was January.. more exactly the 22nd of January, she was working the night shift and I stayed back x) . Gave her a lil surprise and she sent me a sms which i still hv in my phone till today.. she liked the gift and that was the most important thing that mattered to me. Actually i was planning to buy her bunny ears but I had logic..how in the world can you impress a girl with bunny ears? so i bought her something else instead which I can proudly say she still wears till today =) .
As time passed by, we grew closer, our bonds strengthened. The memories of the bittersweet feelings enveloping still remains strongly etched in my heart. The painful feeling of not being able to be with someone I loved and the enlightening feeling of having her beside me, even though as friends, it was suffice.. for I was able to share her joys, see her smile and laugh. x)
It was not until that fateful night, under the stars, where I made my feelings clear. I cared for her..I loved her then.. I love her now..sometimes i wish there was something greater than the word love coz merely loving her is a understatement to what I had felt that night and what I feel now which is much more than the simple phrase of " I love you "
As of now, I'm as happy as I can ever be, I have a caring and a supportive family, I got loyal friends and I got an affectionate and lasting soul mate [ dats my baby x) ] And i thank God for that..i really do.. I pray that everyone I know is happy, I pray for their safety, and I pray for their success.
Gonna end this post now..hehe..

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Sunshine

Went through a rough patch last week, things seem to be getting better.. thank god for that.

"My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness" Tenzin Gyatso (The Dalai Lama)

"Let go of anger, let go of pride. When you are bound by nothing, you go beyond sorrow" The Dhammapada

"Why do what you will regret?

Why bring tears upon yourself?

Do only what you do not regret

And fill yourself with joy"

The Dhammapada

Do not accept anything simply because it has been said by your teacher, or because it has been written in your sacred book, or because it has been believed by many, or because it has been handed down by your ancestors. Accept and live only according to what will en-able you to see truth face to face. The Buddha

There is no Truth in this world other than the Truth of our hearts. w.s (yep..its my creation)

Phrases

" I wish my lawn was so emo it would cut itself " not that I hv a lawn buts its a cool idea.

" I wish to exercise my constitutional rights to not give a fuck "

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sigh

Months have passed, I've kinda developed this unwanted character of being too sensitive over small things.. thinking too much over small incidents, getting pissed or emo over some friendly teasing and actions. Thoughts randomly appearing in my mind, burdening me with my negative interpretation of things.
Probably I'm feeling insecure or weak..well I don't like this feeling.. anyone wouldn't like this feeling. The feeling of being in a position where you can lose everything in a blink of an eye. Thats probably why I work so hard spend so much time to maintain what I have now.. but I'm getting tired..really tired of of trying..tired of worrying..
I really wonder at times whether my efforts and sacrifices were worth it.. coz I don't see any rewards and improvements. Like a phrase I once read " Whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap " (Galatians IV). The truth of the phrase is undeniable but I can't definitely say if it applies to me coz efforts that I have made has ended up in frustrations.

Dim lights

Dimmed lights.. cold winds slapping my face, an endless stream of thoughts swirling up. Thoughts of the past, present and future making its silent greetings. A stark reminder of the journey ahead.
My mind is in doubt, my spirit in agony, my body in pain.

Good link

http://www.michaelooi.net/

my gawd this guy is fuckin hillarious

don't know what went wrong..

A new day begins, a glorious beam of life shone upon me. Envisioning a great adventure ahead, I rise. I rise to the many challenges ahead of me. I rise to the fate that I acknowledge and accept.
A journey full of perils await me. Dark clouds begin to amass with each step I take. A moist wind envelops me, giving hints of an oncoming storm. Gathering my pace, I hurry to the station, a mere stop to my true destination. Birds flock in a chaotic mess of directions, a glimpse of lightning, a sound of thunder marked the start of what would be a tribulation that I will come to face and endure for the rest of the diurnal course.
A watery outburst pours upon me. Drenched to the bones, my spirit dwindles. Hoping and praying for a glimmer of hope. I persevered. Eventually the bus arrived, cold jets of air from the air-condition didn't really help in alleviating my condition.
Ultimately, I arrived at my true destination. My soul revitalized with the sight of my dearest dame. Oblivious to the passing hours, I relish to the fact that I'm right beside her. Having her in my arms. A feeling unparalleled by anything existing in this world.
A harbinger of grief arrives. With incomparable ease he ruin my single moment of happiness. Loneliness sweeping up from the dark cold depths, inviting what seems to be a troubling and heavy feeling of despair.
And so..my day ends with..a feverish body.. a troubled mind..

Addiction

I have a confession.

I have an addiction.

Why... why are u so tempting?...ugh..

Never ever thought I would start..

Not in a right mind would i have ever thought about it..

Temptation after temptation..i finally gave in..

*Heroes is the nicest series I had ever watched *

xD

currently on ep 12 ..11 more eps hehehe