Thursday, December 30, 2010

So far so far

Laughter, blood, tears and sweat,

Fellowship, arguments, suffering and hardship I would never have expect,

Up and down the rail of life which has been set,

Predestined or not, who cares? Its not my job to worry or to fret,

In the hands of the Creator my future I would pledge,

Claiming His glorious promise with a faith i would fully vent.

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Its been 24 days since I started out this internship in Tyco, hopes and expectations of doing something I would enjoy being laid in a murky sticky swamp. It gets pretty annoying and frustrating at times when you have nothing to do other than reading manuals after manuals on materials and valves, it gets even moreeeeeeee frustrating when you have nothing else to do after reading those manuals from A-Z. I even forgot how many times I almost fell dead asleep on the desk due to the mundane nature of this internship. I need more hands-on-work. I need to moveee.

Maybe its a blessing that I have so little to do because I've been given time to catch up on reading books which are long overdue. Its not my fault that you didn't give me enough work D:

On another hand, I'm broke. I spent a hefty amount of cash this month through certain fees, certain purchases, and a lot of food. God's pulling me through, somehow. 

Moving on, like a random number generator, I will talk about being in a relationship or not being in one. Honestly just forget about standards and requirements and such, its never a set thing. Being comfortable single does not mean your ready for a relationship, or even in the best position for one in the first place. Its all about acceptance and noticing the people around us more.

I'm sleepy. My eye lids are heavy. ugh. goodnight.

Thinking of you always.

And gotta thank His awesomeness for everything in my life :)
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The Clock
tick tock tick tock,
There it goes the hands of the clock,
Irreversible seconds as time flock,
A growing past and a shrinking future,
Merciless is time as it teasingly croaks,
A windy road i used to walk,
Sharp turnings which made my heart scream stop,
Torrents of meaningless suffering as I continued to walk,
The purpose of life I always have sought,
Until i met with the abundance of the grace of God,
Windy roads made straight guided by the Holy Spirit of God,
A purpose that I have sought, returned with eternal hope,
All this from the price paid of the One,
The One whom I call my savior, my friend, my father and my Lord.

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A month, a week, a day
Oh how fast time passes away,
The day of present becoming a memory of past,
Moments of anguish and of pure bliss,
Moments of entrapment and of enlightenment,
All these, in a cruel cycle, again and again as the sun sets and the moon rises,
Becoming a distant relic carved in the invisible depths of the heart,
A brief candle twas compared to,
An unexpected wind and the final flight departs,
Eternal darkness or light,
Only God can judge.

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

Holidays! weee

I understand why working adults love holidays now.

Friday, December 03, 2010

Tough times ahead

I foresee a mountain to climb in the next few months, many things to do and accomplish yet so little and limited time and energy to dispense. But its only in those times where the presence of God is ever so strongly tangible. The presence so reassuring. For when I'm weak thats exactly when I'm strong right? in You :)

God please prepare me for the days to come and for the challenges that will arise. Guard my heart with your peace and understanding, pave the way ahead of me as I rely on you Lord, and sustain me in your presence. 

As they come marching in,
I stand and watch with eyes of troubled disgust.

As they come marching in,
Helplessness and hopelessness swirl about.

As they come marching in,
Despair is often long and comes in abrupt.

But I fear not. 
God is with me...In Him I will overcome.

Thursday, December 02, 2010

Hmmm

God, help me out, I need a miracle!

I am so not gonna check my results tonight.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Sometimes

I could lie at bed the whole day, just so that I can dream of you.

Okay! Need-a be productive!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Messiness away

Masa sudah sampai utk aku mengemas bilik yg kucar-kacir ini.

Situasi ini bagai puting beliung melanda.

Bm aku memang buruk.

KKK (Ketawa Keluar Kuat) = LOL

Oh ya, aku sudah mendapat internship! Ini memang berita yg bagus. Harap harap keputusan saya lagi bagus.

Praise God!

Friday, November 26, 2010

Seeking You

Faith immeasurable,
Love eternal.

Arms held high,
Hearts in abandonment.

Men bow with admiration,
Blessing your name, Holy holy holy is God Almighty.

Thy promises will come,
Thy will be done.

Fool,

Faith have you not
With the promises which have and are to be fulfilled

Faith have you not
When the new dawn comes, when the rainbows form

Faith have you not
For God's Will is sovereign, For God's plans are to prosper

Thursday, November 25, 2010

I wanna wanna

Climb a mountain, swim in the sea, or just chill in a waterfall.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

I wonder how its gonna be

Really, I don't think I'll ever get back up from this. I've completely fallen.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Blessed

Found a ruffled feather in my room, its either a bird who snuck in through the closed windows or maybe just my guardian angel who is on a shedding season. I wonder how he/she looks like.




Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Monday, November 15, 2010

Sleeping disorders

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Sleep Paralysis.
Would you let me sleep in peace already? 
Its not like you can effect me the way you did last time.
God, please protect my sleep. I need it.

A prayer of serenity

Its actually from a bookmark from a close friend of mine but I guess its the perfect prayer for the time, i guess.

God grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

God please don't put me on this roller-coaster again but don't take the cross I'm bearing away from me, just grant me the strength and faith to go on as long as You wish for things to be.

I'm always waiting on you Lord, always will be.

Take this heart of mine and make it yours, make it what you want it to be.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

What are you looking for?

Have you found the object of your hearts desire?
Have you found the inspiration in which you have seek-ed for so long?

Now, look back at your life, what you have become at this point of life.
Tell me, 
what have you gained? 
what have you forsaken to gain those things which you wanted?
do you think they are worth the price?

When we do certain things to move onward, is time a valid reason to forget about all the sacrifices made?

How have you changed yourself and your own values in which you treasure in order to seek those temporal experiences. 

Have you realized how un-individualistic you have become? 
Swept by the waves of social and educational clatter. Is it worth it? Trading that soul of yours to the devil of temporary achievements. 

The final question. In the search for success, have you lost yourself in the process?

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Its never easy

Its hard being a committed Christian in a family which does not have the same set of values, my sisters are cool about it, heck even one of my sisters is a Church-goer herself. The problem lies with my parents, what am i suppose to do when I've got responsibilities to live up as a committed church member? Why am I always put into the spotlight when i skip family breakfast sessions on Sunday to attend church. I'm tired of this cycle of being angry, feeling really gutted and guilty of it, seeking forgiveness, going to altar calls for words of prayer and being hopeful that things would improve. It just doesn't go away at all. But I don't think I'm the only one being in such a limbo, I should probably count my lucky stars and blessings for the things i have now. Its just hard to bear at times. Okay now i gotta go study for Friday's paper. Bye!


Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Too much maths!

Whats the formula to freedom?

Its simple, as simple as ABCs.

     1 Cross
+   3 Nails
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     4given
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Sunday, November 07, 2010

I could sing of your love forever!

Yes I could! in different languages as well!



What is your passion?

A friend asked me this question,

What is your passion in life?
I couldn't give a concrete answer then but now I already know the answer, don't you?

My passion would be for Christ! A passion to be whatever I can be or whatever the talents i have to glorify Him.

On another note,

My mum teasingly mentioned about taking care of them when they are older. I have, without a doubt in my mind that I would take care of them when I'm capable to fend for myself. When the time has come, I would definitely like to repay my parents with the news of eternal life. Don't you think thats more important compared to money? Well money is important but don't worry la, God provides!

Saturday, November 06, 2010

RAH!

They made my day.




Its 6am

I've deleted and re-written every single thing for a few times now, I am at ends wit and I don't know what to write. Lets write a poem okay?
Planes come passing by,
Bringing multitudes in with a loud cry,
Its silent here where i lie,
It makes me think of what of the world if i should die,
No i'm just pulling your leg cause i want things to rhyme,
Got you! didn't i?

The silence is broken finally, with the colorful linguistics of the the middle eastern tribes. It feels like a intrusion of the private peaceful period in which I had. Argh. sucks. I can't write anymore.bye.



Thursday, November 04, 2010

Acronyms

Realization 2.0

Came home to realize that i lost my notes. OSM.

Whats with the acronyms?

Alphabetical
Crap
Renowned for
Obsolete
Non-sequitur
Yarrish
Meanings

Thats an acronym for you. C'mon. I can type asdhafg and call it a random acronym. Its tasteless, senseless and all the less-ness-tess whatever bess.

ASAP - Always Say A Prayer!

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I think I have finally realized after so long, the true meaning and power of an effective prayer.

Pray with Purpose.
Pray with Faith.
Pray with Steadfastness.
Pray with Zeal
Pray with Will of the Holy Spirit.
Pray with God's faithfulness, holiness and goodness in mind.
Pray with Great Expectancy of things to come into completion.
Pray while keeping in mind He can do, how He delights in Christ His Son and of your place to Him.

I can say that my faith has been rewarded and truly God is a great God. I often questioned him for the past few weeks why He had to put so much troubles and heart felt sorrows but I know now its for the good of me that I'd always rely on Him. For when I am weak, then am I strong.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philipians 4:6-7

 So ASAP!

Monday, November 01, 2010

Inspiration



The abstract has always fascinated me. I wonder why I chose engineering at times but its a step closer to what I always dreamed of though I will probably not reach it due to the harsh nature of reality. I do appreciate art though.

I think I'm gonna start sketching again in the coming summer. Its been long.

God says



God's cakap, tunggu dan bersabar.

Aku memang tak faham tapi aku bukan di posisi untuk menyoal keputusan-Nya.

Bagai menunggu awan di Gunung Sinai untuk bergerak dari posisinya, saya akan menunggu. Menunggu keputusan Tuhan.

Btw, 

Bahasa Melayu saya sangat buruk. Minta maaf ya. teehee.





Saturday, October 30, 2010

Ready!


Funny it takes something or someone to push you along the highway of recovery. Hey its the exit sign. Are you ready to take it? I am.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

The solution: Jesus

God please give me the maturity, wisdom and love to be more and more like you every day. It is my will to be so but whatever it is, Your will be done.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Awake



Yes i'm literally awake at 5.30 in the morning. I just spent 3 hours doing applications for an internship. If its Your will for me to get into any of these companies, please let them reply to me with some good news. pwetty please?

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Inconceivable

Petrol to Subang Avenue                                                            RM   1.00
Fine for parking in a non parking spot                                       RM 80.00

The entertainment I had for reading the contents of the fine.   RM (priceless)

It said in the list of of fines, that if your car is a torn down car and if you were to park it in a non-parking spot/public spot, you would get fined RM500. lol. nice

Outright discrimination. lol.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Sunday, October 17, 2010

2 weeks!

Yes, I will do my best this 2 weeks. I'll rely on you Father for strength to carry on :)

I hope you are too even with the given situation I've put you in. Please be strong.

Fac optumum tuum!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Reflections of the past

Hey Mr. October, how have you been? me? I've not been doing good at all. It has been an eventful month I must say, a month of utter disappointment and a season of spiritual dryness. I've lost sight of God, I've even lost that last piece of intimate support I had but I do have to.. Thank God for family, a home cooked meal placed on the table everyday at home no matter how late I come back. Thank God for friends, being there when I need someone to laugh with. After all, laughter is the best medicine. Don't you agree?

Mr October, you've been rather harsh on me this month, don't you think? From being spiritually dry to just being plainly broken inside. I thought I had patched things up but apparently I used the wrong sort of glue. Remnants of the past still leaked in. Stupid cheap glue, you take too slow to dry. 

I broke a heart this month. Didn't you hear Mr October? I even broke my own heart again in the process, to even smaller bits and pieces. Talk about hitting two birds with a stone. I should be a sharpshooter in profession. My broken heart? I don't really care anymore. Its always broken. I don't think it would be repairable in a while. I never bothered mending it in the first place. I know I know, I shouldn't have let another heart in. I am already regretting it okay? Don't mention it anymore. I guess the heart got broken by the sharp broken pieces of my own heart. I hope the heart which i broke wouldn't be that broken. I'm so sorry for that. I hope you find one that heals your heart. I don't want to risk breaking your heart again. Well on a new note, I'm thinking that I don't think I'll let anyone else in..well other than God of course because He's invulnerable! God mode! I should quarantine it really. Its like a sure case heart ache infection when in contact with my heart. 

On another note, I heard God has some pretty effective glue. I'll start picking up the pieces first. I really wish I could help you with your pieces, but I guess you hate me now, don't you? 

Mr October, sometimes I don't know what love. Is love giving up your life for another person? I always get dreams of instinctively sacrificing myself for others. Weird, I think I love myself enough not to do something like that but then again Its not about loving yourself in those situation anymore, right? I wonder If my stay on this Earth will be a long one or a short one. Only God knows. Sounds grim, change of topic!

Ahhh, Mr October, your gonna go off work soon. It'll be time for Mr November's shift next. Make sure you stay long enough for me to finish up my studying and work alright? Goodnight Mr October! Don't fall asleep! ...well..like you ever had a choice.


Thursday, October 14, 2010

Behind this fragile mask.

Just walk smile and wave.
Just walk smile and wave.

So sorry for everything.

Goodbye and hello..once again.

I bid you adieu, you deserve better.

Hello loneliness, its nice to meet you again. I hope your stay is going to be short.




Please baby don't (baby don't) 
Don't fall in love with me 
Please baby don't (baby don't) 
You know my history 
See honey I (honey I) 
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you) 
Please baby don't (baby don't) 
Don't fall in love with me 

I've been cruisin down this road for a while now, 
I should tell the truth... 
Girl you've been so good to me but I know 
I'm no good for you 
You should run while you can 
Find yourself a better man 
'Cause I'm known for brief romance 
And breakin hearts across the land 

Yes I've been known to have a few temptations 
Out there on the road 
And let's say hypothetically I've slipped and 
Took a couple home 
Girl I know that's not fair 
You need someone who'll be there 
So just get away before it's too late 
and you're pain is too much to bear 

Please baby don't (baby don't) 
Don't fall in love with me 
Please baby don't (baby don't) 
You know my history 
See honey I (honey I'm) 
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you) 
Please baby don't (baby don't) 
Don't fall in love with me 

(rhodes piano solo) 

Please baby don't (baby don't) 
Don't fall in love with me 
Please baby don't (baby don't) 
You know my history 
See honey I'm (honey I'm) 
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you) 
Please baby don't (baby don't) 
Don't fall in love with me 

Now on second thought maybe we'll give 
This love another try 
'Cause I can't see you with no one else 
I'm selfish I can't lie 
So let's go, let's go slow 
You know all you need to know 
It could end one day but 
Let's just say we'll see how far it goes 

Please baby don't (baby don't) 
Don't fall in love with me 
Please baby don't (baby don't) 
You know my history 
See honey I'm (honey I'm) 
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you) 
Please baby don't (baby don't) 
Don't fall in love with me 

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Irony?

Waves

Its the final wave, the final round, and the final straw in a lot of things in my life. 

Things I will need to change, things I don't wanna change and things that will change me.

I don't wanna stay stagnant anymore. Decisions decisions, I guess this week will have great implications on my life ahead. Somehow I feel glad that its about to come to a conclusion. 

Just one last and final straw, 
After this there would no more,
This I promise as there will be no point to lie,
A lie which will hurt every side,
Something which I should have realized,
After all this while.






Tuesday, October 12, 2010

How stupid could I be?

How could I have been so delusional?

Your the light that shines through my darkness,
Your my support when I'm down,
You shield me in times of trouble,
You comfort me in times of sadness,
Your my protector when I'm in peril.

How could I have been so delusional indeed.

All I need is you Father.

The body of lies.

Things change and they never remain the same,
One thing said today is another said tomorrow,
Does that mean your lying to others or your lying to yourself?
You said nay but the heart says yes, or is the heart telling you lies?
A promise given today and a promise broken tomorrow.
Face the truth, we can't help it.
Internally and externally,
We are all liars.
Hope given in the beginning but the opposite in the end.
Men, they can never be truly trusted.
In the end, its all but a body of lies.

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But God will never let you down!

Saturday, October 09, 2010

Updates!

The year has been moving on rapidly.

Too rapid.
Too fast.
Too furious.

Yes i know. Its a cliche.

This Sunday would be my last OJT and I hope and pray that it all goes well.

I hope i pass EE this semester haha

On another note, I have an internship to look forward to this year and I really hope I get into a company I really am interested.Which is the aviation or the automobile sector. God please grant me favor!

Let nothing disturb thee,
Let nothing dismay thee,
All thing pass,
God never changes.
Patience attains All that it strives for.
He who has God Finds he lacks nothing:God alone suffices

-St Teresa

Thursday, October 07, 2010

woopsie doddle



I somehow feel thats its happening all over again.


Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Shakespeare..i wish.

Walking a thousand miles to seek,
Travelling across the barren land to reach,
But to no avail it is as the future of it seems rather bleak.

I for one have challenged this feat,
Tumbling down the thorny hills far too steep,
Hearts are wounded and suffers defeat
In silence and solitude that I weep.

The cold winds of uncertainty,
Oh how you torment me,
Teasing with your soft and soothing blow,
then rebuking with the harsh icy cold chills of november.





Hi I'm Indecisive.

Hi, I'm Indecisive. Nice to meet you.

I have a favourite past time of not knowing what I want.

I'm having fun right now doing exactly that. I can't choose nor am I moving forward. Can't you sense the excitement in it? * sarcasm *

Sigh.

God.. would you lead me and do something about this? You know my heart, you know my thoughts, you know everything of me. This isn't something I can handle on my own anymore. I always thought I wanted it, but it doesn't seem so anymore.

God, in You I confide to. In You I believe and have faith in.
Guide this humble sheep would yea?

My problems? haha. Not anything I can write here.

A question in mind? Yea. More than one. I hope you will show me the answer soon.

Psalms 34:18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

If you love someone, people say you have to let them go but what they never said was.. what to do if they never get back.

I'll shove my leg up the person's *** who said time heals everything. So far, Its only giving me more time to think of ...u?

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Don't judge me.

Sunday, October 03, 2010

A world to my own.

Now this blog feels like a diary since I blocked off everyone except myself. This ain't gonna fare well with the ads i had posted up in this blog haha.

God, sometimes I don't know what you want from me. What should I do? How should I act?


Saturday, September 25, 2010

Ugh

Monday-Genting trip
Tuesday-Genting trip
Wedneday-Guys time out
Thurs-Guys time out
Friday-Karaoke?
Saturday - Rest out
Sunday - Warming up for the period of hell on earth to come

Planning pass
Execution fail

My new timetable for next week?

Monday + Tues -Genting trip
Wed - Assignments
Thurs - Assignments
Friday - Assignments
Sat - Assignments
Sun - EE + Assignments

Syiok boh?

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Movies to watch!

My mid-sem to do list:

Study!

&

A movie marathon!
- The time traveler's wife
- Inception
- Resident evil series
- Star Wars series
- LOTR series
- The Matrix series

Care to join?

Father can you hear me?

haha

Its so funny how at times you feel so confused. But after all has been said and done, all I want is you Jesus, thanks for your unfailing love Father :)

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Hey you Mr. H

Why are you so weak?

Do you know how uneasy you are making me feel today?

Constantly bombarding me with those oh so depressing pulses.

Just shut up and stop reminding me okay?

gahhhhhhhhhhhh.

I wish I could cut you open to let those feelings in you flow away.

Your making me tired. Your not allowing me to sleep. Your so annoying I can't focus.

What do you want?


Saturday, September 18, 2010

entertainment in the morning.

I think, that someone is doing the real thing in voice instead of a recording in the mosque at this hour in the morning.

His pitching went off abit. Zhou yam. hahahaha.

Denying oneself

A question for you to ponder on.

What does it mean to deny yourself in your daily life, if we are to take up the cross?

I feel that It is through denying oneself of worldly ways and to keep re-accessing one's lifestyle.

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will.

I find it a everyday challenge to do so, but yet, in Christ anything is possible!

I've been bugged in my heart about the word relationship. Is it such a trivial matter already that we are just completely relying on our own emotions as men and not seek the counsel of God? Even more so that these emotions will just keep burning like a wild fire, engulfing every person the eyes see favor in. I'm not saying that emotions are not important, they are but not to the point where we are completely subdued in them. If we as Christians do not set a standard to such things, how are we different from non-Christians?

I have been constantly thinking on these matters but I've not come to a solid conclusion. Reason? Its hard to do so but with a heart that seeks God's will in everything, I believe strength can be found.

[ Think ]

Do not rebuke an older man harshly, but exhort him as if he were your father. Treat younger men as brothers,older women as mothers, and younger women as sisters, with absolute purity.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Blessings

I've been sick for the past few days and its truly God's grace and mercy that I'm feeling a little better today. These past few days have made me realize things which I wouldn't if things didn't go as they were.

For a long time I've been having an inconsistent quiet time but this time of sickness has allowed me to start my day with the Lord which has been really awesome in my point of view. I know i know..I've been saying I wanted to have regular quiet times but It just never happened..so God had to do something drastic I guess but I can't help but feel that He's always there, although sometimes He might withdraw His tangible presence but its always for a good purpose. I just pray that this will continue on even with the busy and hectic times that will soon come by.

Psalms 138:8 The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me

These times have also made realize that whenever your down and in the pits, the only people that you can rely on without a speck of doubt would be your family. Whether its your own blood family or God's family. Its truly a great blessing to have them.

I've began to understand the idea of long suffering, in having patience in whatever things which may come about, in being wise and having a sense of understanding when the world around you just doesn't care anymore. Its also really hard to have patience sometimes when you are being judged for the things you do or do not do.

Matthew 7:12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

So in the end of they day, Its not about us and what we want to achieve in this world. Its about God's will for our lives and that re-assures me.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

In whatever you do, just smile even if you heart is breaking, have a loving and caring attitude and a gentle, patient and humble spirit.

Thats what It means to carry your own cross.

Mark 8:34 If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Pave the way through

Pave the way through! hoooohhaaaaa!

Ezikiel 2:1-8

1 He said to me, "Son of man, stand up on your feet and I will speak to you." 2 As he spoke, the Spirit came into me and raised me to my feet, and I heard him speaking to me.

3 He said: "Son of man, I am sending you to the Israelites, to a rebellious nation that has rebelled against me; they and their fathers have been in revolt against me to this very day. 4 The people to whom I am sending you are obstinate and stubborn. Say to them, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says.' 5 And whether they listen or fail to listen—for they are a rebellious house—they will know that a prophet has been among them. 6 And you, son of man, do not be afraid of them or their words. Do not be afraid, though briers and thorns are all around you and you live among scorpions. Do not be afraid of what they say or terrified by them, though they are a rebellious house. 7 You must speak my words to them, whether they listen or fail to listen, for they are rebellious. 8 But you, son of man, listen to what I say to you. Do not rebel like that rebellious house; open your mouth and eat what I give you."


Monday, September 06, 2010

What would you do?

First of all, Its a hypothetical question. So yea, I'm not dying .immatooyoungtodienowthankyouverymuch.

The question i propose to you,

What would you do and think If you knew you would die tomorrow?

Think of it,

The people you would want to meet for the last time.
The things you would want to do for the last time.
The times and moments spent with whom at the last hour.
Your emotional state in your last periods on earth.
Your regrets.
The farewells, the appreciations.

I personally think If I would to die tomorrow, I'd be totally unprepared for it. But I know I'm going to heaven for sure and I would definitely like my friends and family to join me there when physical death comes looming.

How about you? Do you have that assurance?

Its scary I know, I've had countless dreams of it.
Every dream, asking God for more time to spend with loved ones in this world. I thank God i'm alive today and hopefully and prayerfully that I'll still be here tomorrow if its God's Will.

Feeling a tinge of emotion in your heart? Its gut wrenching isn't it?

Picture this,

Inexplicably you just pass away,

Now, your in your funeral. You see your body. You see your family and friends and even unknown people, mourning for you, crying their hearts out.

But yet, your still there.. aren't you? Yet, no matter how much you shout or scream or even try to touch them. It doesn't work. It will never work.

Tears flow down your cheeks, your afraid. You think to yourself; "What now?" " I don't wanna die now" and ultimately..

"Someone.. help me"

Now, do you still think death is still something far away and something which shouldn't be thought of?

Where will you go after you die? Its not really a hard question to answer really, do you think with all you have done in this world, that you honestly.. deserve to go to some place better after all you've done in this world based on your own works? The evil thoughts you had, the hurtful words you said, the stupid actions which you did.

So do you think your still going to a better place?

If you think you still are going to that better place, think again. and again. and again. Do you know 100% for sure?

If you think that you will never ever go or even step foot on that better place, I have the greatest news you have ever heard. You can know for certain that you will go to heaven.

How?

Through Jesus Christ alone.

John 14:6 Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

Vague? I bet you do have Christian friends around you, if not, I pray that you will have an encounter with God in your life.

I can however tell you about it if you drop me ur email add on the chatbox :)

3 John 1:2 Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well.

Goodnight.