So far so far

Laughter, blood, tears and sweat,

Fellowship, arguments, suffering and hardship I would never have expect,

Up and down the rail of life which has been set,

Predestined or not, who cares? Its not my job to worry or to fret,

In the hands of the Creator my future I would pledge,

Claiming His glorious promise with a faith i would fully vent.

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Its been 24 days since I started out this internship in Tyco, hopes and expectations of doing something I would enjoy being laid in a murky sticky swamp. It gets pretty annoying and frustrating at times when you have nothing to do other than reading manuals after manuals on materials and valves, it gets even moreeeeeeee frustrating when you have nothing else to do after reading those manuals from A-Z. I even forgot how many times I almost fell dead asleep on the desk due to the mundane nature of this internship. I need more hands-on-work. I need to moveee.

Maybe its a blessing that I have so little to do because I've been given time to catch up on reading books which are long overdue. Its not my fault that you didn't give me enough work D:

On another hand, I'm broke. I spent a hefty amount of cash this month through certain fees, certain purchases, and a lot of food. God's pulling me through, somehow. 

Moving on, like a random number generator, I will talk about being in a relationship or not being in one. Honestly just forget about standards and requirements and such, its never a set thing. Being comfortable single does not mean your ready for a relationship, or even in the best position for one in the first place. Its all about acceptance and noticing the people around us more.

I'm sleepy. My eye lids are heavy. ugh. goodnight.

Thinking of you always.

And gotta thank His awesomeness for everything in my life :)

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The Clock

tick tock tick tock,

There it goes the hands of the clock,

Irreversible seconds as time flock,

A growing past and a shrinking future,

Merciless is time as it teasingly croaks,

A windy road i used to walk,

Sharp turnings which made my heart scream stop,

Torrents of meaningless suffering as I continued to walk,

The purpose of life I always have sought,

Until i met with the abundance of the grace of God,

Windy roads made straight guided by the Holy Spirit of God,

A purpose that I have sought, returned with eternal hope,

All this from the price paid of the One,

The One whom I call my savior, my friend, my father and my Lord.

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A month, a week, a day

Oh how fast time passes away,

The day of present becoming a memory of past,

Moments of anguish and of pure bliss,

Moments of entrapment and of enlightenment,

All these, in a cruel cycle, again and again as the sun sets and the moon rises,

Becoming a distant relic carved in the invisible depths of the heart,

A brief candle twas compared to,

An unexpected wind and the final flight departs,

Eternal darkness or light,

Only God can judge.