Chinese New YeAr ( CNY )

I had a fun and eventful Chinese New Year. My whole family which is made out of 2parents and 4 siblings made a trip to Genting Highlands. We went up on Friday night and I did a bit wondering.. Alone.. in the Arcade section while they were in the hotel room sleeping or watching tv..nothing really happened on friday night. Its true when they say good things come unexpectedly..coz i had a hell of a fun time on Saturday. We sat on almost all the roller coasters in the theme park but we skipped the rather dull looking Cork Screw which felt quite tame to me. It was time for the yearly reunion dinner.. my father had booked for a table in a chinese restaurant which specialized in cooking dishes out of lamb. My father ordered a quarter of a roast lamb which was superbly delicious! When they brought the lamb to the table..I was DUMBSTRUCK! the whole piece of lamb was absolutely HUGE! At the very moment i saw the lamb..I was in cloud nine..truly it was a good experience. We went home on Sunday morning and gathered in my parents place for dinner. Dinner ..as always was really delicious.. thx to my mom's superb cooking skills! We even played thrilling rounds of Blackjack for a few hours. The night ended with some desert. well..the night ain't over yet for me! PS2.. here I come!

To all of u.. no matter if u are a chinese or non-chinese.. Happy CHInEsE New YeaR!! MAy u b prosperous and healthy throughout the year!.. and thx for reading my blog!//can't believe anyone would wanna read this but hell if someone is readin this blog.. then it would be worth spending my time on it. BB~~

My Journey

OK.. I've decided that its time to review my journey throughout these 18 years. I was born in SJ medical center in Subang Jaya. Due to some unforeseen circumstances..My parents decided to migrate to Australia. I stayed there for almost 5-6 years. A lot has happened in those 6 years. The first show that I actually looked forward to was none other than Sesame street. Used to watch it every morning till I had to go to elementary school. The first ever school that I went to was the Christian community church of Grandville in Sydney. Learned my abc's and numbers there. I even learned to write short stories there. Imagine that.. Being 4-5 years old and being able to write short stories.. That's impressive.. But my writhing skills are pretty bad right now. Made a lot of friends and I even had my first crush. Lolz.. I remember the times where my whole family used to visit the community swimming pool.. We walked there of course.. And my sisters always plucked red and blueberries from the trees on the way. Well I remember how my father used to swim in his short pants and doing the frog style. It was hilarious! lolz.. I even got my fear of water from that swimming pool which I had eventually conquered. I'm just gonna say that I drowned.. The last thing I remembered was drinking a lot of chlorinated water. Later on..I woke up in my apartment..Mainly because of the strong spicy smell of curry chicken which my mother was cooking back at the apartment where I was staying. I used to go to the fish market in Sydney every weekend and slurp down oysters which was absolutely fresh. And the rest are history..
My whole family flew back to Malaysia when I was about 6-7 years old. And we eventually picked up on life from that point on. I was enrolled into a Malay primary school which I still have very fond memories of until now. It was the SS19 primary school. My first class in school was absolutely dreadful. The Malay teachers couldn;t understand a thing I said as my English was full of the typical Australian slang. On the second day of school.. I ran back home during class... My parents was totally shocked and sent me back to school at once. Imagine a 7year old crossing main roads..Whoa..A scary thought..but i survived!
OK..I'm gonna stop for now.. gonna continue later on..

The Future

For the past few weeks I have been thinking of my future career. I know.. i should have done this earlier.. but no time for regrets! I thought that i would never change my mindset on becoming a mechanical engineer but things do happen. I began wondering about the job prospects in the future. Will I be another ordinary man..walking an ordinary path of life? I want to be different.. i don't want to wake up in the morning thinking.. " ah shucks..another day in the office "
Since I was 7 years old I had always aspired to become a pilot and that dream continued to burn inside till the fateful day where I had to wear spectacles. I blame myself for that.. too much computer games a day can seriously damage your eyes. So I decided to become a mechanical engineer.. the closest i could get to work with an aircraft. But now.. everything has changed.. I recently heard of the news that they accept people who are wearing spectacles. Thank God for that!
Now I feel confused.. many people are telling me about the small odds of me becoming a pilot. I can only hope and pray that i will be accepted into the pilot-training program. Wish me luck! I pray to our Father in hopes that I will be selected for the program...

2006 Here I come!!

2005 has been the most eventful year of my life. I even started blogging that year and I'm glad that I did. Blogging has kinda helped me ease my feelings when i'm sad and it also enabled me to share the exciting and joyful moments that I had experienced throughout the yeAr. Well I'm not here to give you some nonsense philosophy crap talk which almost everyone writes about.. No no.. I'm gonna write about how i started my new year!
well well... How shall I start?

I started my New Years eve by visiting my new church and got blasted away by the music and I even made a few friends and joined a care group. As lotsa old geezers once said.. Trouble comes when u least expect it.. And it did. One of my dogs shook the whole condominium with its loud pitchy barking.. This caused all the residents from the floors below and above to come to my unit to check it out. Sure enough.. All of em complained and looks like I have to evict this dog. Enough of bad news..Time for some interesting stories!

I went to Sunway pyramid which is a shopping complex for all of you non-malaysians. Had a great time there with my friends ..We joined in for the countdown and was treated with a ...Err.. Entertaining but normal fireworks display which ended in less than 10 minutes. We made our trip to Sri Hartamas and went to have some drinks there. Ordered some Shesha.. I don't know if I spelled it correctly but its basically a Arabic thingi which you use to smoke...To non-smokers who are reading this blog.. Its a way to experience smoking without getting addicted.. Surely enough.. I got high!! lolx.. We ordered some beers and was treated with some annoying band music by some local rock band. I reached back at 3.30am and fell asleep almost instantly.

That sums up my new years eve.

To everyone out there.. HAPPY new YEaR!!!!

Miracles!!

Yesterday.. i was really sad after my dog couldn't see but miracles do happen!! He was kinda blind in the morning but after i brought him to the vet and came back home, HE CaN see AGAIN!!! YAY!!! God has given me another chance and praise him for that!! Praise our Lord Jesus and the almighty God!!! laalalalala~~~~

Giving up on life

Here I am.. hugging my dog.. realizing how fragile life can be. My dog who has lost one of its eyes is now blind on the remaining eye. Now.. he's completely blind.. i can't help but wonder when the lord is going to take him away from me. I feel so helpless... somebody help me..tell me.. what should i do?
Tears are cascading down in endless streams of sorrow. I feel like giving up.. I have no one there to give me good advice..no one there to comfort me.. I had already lost my loved one already.. I can't bear to lose another..i can't.. this time.. i might lose my dog forever..
I had been ignoring my dogs these days.. due to the computer and other stuff.. i had never really cared for them really much.. really.. u won't notice that you miss something until you lose them.. i can't write anymore..

A tale of love and sadness

I was once a lonely person. I didn't yearn for much love or companionship...As I was afraid..
Afraid of the things that might come. Sure you may all say that love is a wonderful feeling and all those nonsense..But deep down.. With love..Comes unbearable pain and heartache which is waiting...waiting for its chance to emerge from the dark depths of a person's heart. Looks like I was right, It did come...
Once again my heart is broken..Shattered to be exact. Now I wonder if I will ever find the courage to believe someone again, share my heart with this very person and most of all..To love again.
Now, I will tell you my tale...My tale of shattered dreams and beliefs. I used to be a cold hearted person..Well.. Cold hearted in the way of accepting people into my life. I thought that this might be the most easiest solution of it all. A solution that will safeguard my heart from any potential heartbreak that will come. That was until I met her..My special one.. I felt a sense of joy and friendship when I was with her.. And that feeling evolved into love. One of the reasons for that may be the fact that I sensed some similarities between her and me. Both of us.. Always hiding our true feelings inside and maintaining a happy face in the presence of others even though we are feeling like our hearts being slashed repeatedly with sharp whips. I had always hated that feeling..And that was why I really cared for her. I wanted to be someone who she could always tell her problems to....I wanted to be there for her.... I didn't want anyone to suffer like I always did..
It was beautiful in the beginning... My life was changed before my very own eyes.. I had become more open about my feelings. I had learned how to love again. Every single day when I was with her, I felt as if I was in heaven... Angels dancing everywhere.. Clouds of love around us.. I was even foolish enough to think that we were gonna last..Forever...
A few months later, she went on a holiday trip to another land. Before that trip..We were talking like usual. Eagerly, I waited for her to come back..But she never did.. Instead.. I met a complete stranger. I didn't know her anymore... From that point onwards... I questioned myself if she ever loved me anymore. Things changed.....We never talked like we did before... And she treated me as if I was a ordinary friend. From that point onwards, I sensed that something inevitable was about to happen. Something that I had feared the most. We broke up. Tears of despair ran down my cheeks. This time.. My heart was shattered. On that day, I was really confused.. I was even on the brink of suicide..But my common sense told me not to do so.. I told my self " Its not worth it "..I said it almost a thousand times to myself. Finally..I had to let go.. Let go of everything..
I still and always will love her...My feelings had never changed. Maybe we were not fated to be together. Nevertheless.. Karen.. If you are reading this.. You can always tell me your problems.. No matter what happens I will be there for you... Like I used to as your companion.. But now..As your friend..
Now..I shall return to the place..To the deepest pits and hide myself there. My shattered heart will remain frozen.. Until someday.... So remember.. Don't love someone deeply to easily.. Cause you might not know when your heart will be broken.. heartbreaks may take lifetimes to forget..