another one?

Was feeling quite hungry today, chicken rice in carrefour really didn't satisfy my appetite.. I desired for more meat, and there I was with Chin in KFC looking at the menu board for some meat..something which fulfills my carnivorous desires and considerably light since I had a full blown meal a moment ago. Well as the malaysian readers should know that kfc always comes up with these new promotions which I can say..totally sux and unfulfillable.
Chicken Poopers was what they called it and in the menu it looked big and seemed to be the perfect item. The sad truth is that it was 5 small miserable fried chicken balls which were dry and tasted and looked like miniature meatballs which I could buy from the food court for half the price.

When is kfc ever gonna learn?

:)

History will not repeat itself ,
I Promise you ;)

sigh

Complacency is starting to get the better of me. Instead of being grateful of my surroundings, my life and my loved ones.. I've become rather bitter and emo-ish. I hope this break will give me some time to relax for a change.

lol

href="http://www.toysforyourblog.com/games/bigred/">Put The Big Red Button on your site

nicked it from my baby's blog ..xD

new hairdo

Before
After
I got myself new haircut! after months of keeping my hair long.. i finally chopped it off.
well...to ppl who know me long enough.. well.. this ain't new, i've always looked the same with short hair =..=

x)

Every thing is great =) thx, all of u for ur concern ..really appreciate it.

Fuck it

you know, i wish to believe..i want to believe that everything is fine..
but i'm just feeling plain insecure inside coz your not treating me the way u treat me anymore..i don't know if its just me or its just u.. but this doubt in me is just growing with each passing day.

And yes i fucking hate this feeling.. jealousy? nah.. it all just goes into a destroyed sense of self confidence.. I don't need anyone to tell me the bloody truth.. i know i can't do shit to save anyones pathetic existence.

you know sometimes, i think that something is happening behind my back.. yes i think too fucking much.. but I can't help it..i'm human not a saint. The phrase what goes around comes around keeps bloody spinning in my skull like a fucking disease. By the tone of this post.. u the readers shud know that i am pissed and depressed. So excuse my fuckin language coz i give no quarters to ur fuckin welfare or concerns.

Damn i feel better now, got it outta my head.. but this doesn't mean i'm over it..this means I am taking a bloody break from thinking too much, no wonder I hv so much white hair.

Bah..

hrmm?

Sigh..spending the last few hours thinking alone.. wonder if everything is in fact all right.. i miss her.. she hasn't called yet, maybe shes busy. The dreams I had were nerve wreaking.. I feel really depressed. Haven't had this feeling for a long time.. the feeling that I might lose someone I really love.
Messaged and called her, shes with her friends.. I guess I won't get to see her after all today...
Its funny how my music list coincides with how i feel right now.. currently listening to
lifehouse: you and me

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

I really want to see her.. but I don't want her to see me in this condition....remnants of the flown tears still evident.. don't want her to worry.. I just wish I nvr had that dream..


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A tiring and confusing feeling

Seems to be like a routine now, the same thing everyday.. not that I don't enjoy it but it gets really tiring when u reach a certain time or stage. I need a new place to relax myself, i need to find a secluded place where i can just relax myself. Well I can't think of any places like that in SJ..its kinda rare..sigh
Theres something else bothering me or rather some thoughts are bothering me, and I'm afraid..
afraid of losing someone I hold dearly in my heart. I might just be thinking too much but every time i look at her..she seems unhappy.. the reasons remain obscure. I would do anything in my limits to make her truly happy.. coz seeing her sad makes me feel really depressed.. whats even more depressing is the fact that I don;t know if her smiles are for real.. hide ur sadness with a smile?
I hope things would improve in time..I can just hope..