Dammit

DanG! I came to work today for NOTHING... well.. i wasn't suppost to work today but i ended up there anyway, i dragged myself up from bed and wasted 7 bux taking a cab to carrefour .all to find out that i wasn't working today.. i'm gonna sleep like a pig today..not gonna wake up till the evening..

bleah...

I'm so tired.. mentally and physically, so many things has happened these past few days.. family problems, money problems, health problems and even a close brush with death. It feels tired to maintain a smile everyday and it makes me wonder why and who am I doing this for.. for myself? far from it.. its like having something stabbing ur heart every moment..yet you can't do anything about it or even talk to anyone about it. Even if you do talk to anyone about it, no one will ever understand what goes through your mind, yea u can say that friends do "help" by giving words of advice or even telling you what you should do but all their "help" just makes you feel miserable about yourself and it creates an utmost sense of self-pity which really breaks yourself up. Talk all you want about your problems but I personally think that no one will really be able to comprehend or grasp the real situation of the events happening in your life. For example, historians or journalists write about the details of the war in Iraq.. bloodshed.. foreign ppl abducted and killed.. civilians killed in bomb blasts..terror strikes again..blabla yada yada.. and things like that. Ppl can write about those things but the feelings are just not there. Civilians killed? Did your own family member die due to the blasts? most probably No.. so are u able to put urself in the shoes of the people who had suffered losses? No.. you see.. it finally comes to a point where you can't and will not understand the pain someone is going through when he or she encounters a problem or becomes involved in mentally and physically damaging chain of events. Every thing that happens ..well.. it happens for a reason.. and the factors implicating these events differ from one individual to another individual. As the implicating factor differs.. a particular problem or event will yield different results with different people. Sounds complex? I don't know what I'm talking about too.. ok.. lets simplify it.. lets say that person (A) and person (B) lost $10 at the same time and place. Person (A) gets screwed for losing 10 bloody bux by his or her parents but Person (B) just goes on with his life without a bother. So its the same problem but with different consequences.
So to people who think they have the right to criticize someone who encounters certain problems which they have gone through before ..think again.. you may have gone off the hook easier compared to other people. So think about what you say before giving "helpful advice".
This brings me back to the main point of this particular post which I am sure that you will be confused at this point. No one will be able to completely help you with your own problems.. only You can solve the problem yourself. If you can't solve it ...well suffer with it and learn to embrace it.. its only thing you can do..For my problems..the only thing I can do is to embrace the mental and physical torture and watch as more related problems and unwanted events unfold before my eyes.
Its funny thinking how people react to other people's problems. The most common question they would ask is " Are u okay? " ...really.. that question fustrates me.. I have a fucking problem and u ask me.. am i okay?! No i am not fuckin okay..if i was okay i won't hv any problems at all.. zzz.. so if ur trying to be nice to someone who is having a problem just be sensible enough to ask smart questions.

Money

cool cat

Another Einstein theory in-the-making? nah..



Another random pic =P ..how i wish i had those airbags xD.. i won't mind crashing into walls all day hahaha



Any attempts to deny the truth of those words are futile and needless to say that the majority of us agree with those words =x



Now that is what i call a GooD kitty cat! who needs a drinking buddy when u got a cat who smokes and drinks =P

tagged?

Well i guess i got tagged.. i'm supposed to write the 7 songs i'm listening now. Here goes:-
1) jeff buckley -hallelujah
2) the raconteurs- steady as she goes
3) rascal flatts-what hurts the most
4) Panic! at the disco-but it's better if you do
5) teddy geiger-these walls
6) metallica-master of puppets
7) Ikimono Gakari- Hanabi

ugh.. lazy wanna pass this tag = s

Humans

lala

Just took my typhoid jab this afternoon, i guess i finally got over the needle thingi coz i didn't even feel a thing when the person jabbed me.. i think ant bites are more painful. I really hate this numb sensation on my arm which is where i took the jab, it doesn't hurt..it definitely doesn't feel good.. its just plain annoying.
I did some spring cleaning n my house.. mopped the floor 4 times,washed the dishes,washed the clothes ( washing machine), threw the rubbish etc etc. Why am i doing this? well my mom went to India so no ones cleaning the house right now so i guess the only thing left to do is to bath the dogs and give em a good hair cut, which is not easy..fuckin stuborn dogs, sometimes i wish i could jus smack em and make them sit still there.
Sometimes i just feel really lazy to update this blog so i'll set a limit to myself to 1-2 blogs a week..maybe less.. ahaha.. Dinner time

someone

Do u have that special someone in ur heart right now? Special as in..a girl or a guy that u really like/adore. Don't lie to urself if u say u don't have one, ur probably thinking about that person right now.... its funny how the human mind does things.. it makes u want something that you can't have..it makes u want it so bad until the point where it drives u mad thinking about that person yet we don't seem to notice the people in front of us, people that can be deemed attractive/nice or a possible gf/bf but we somehow realize it when its too late.
The main question, why must we have that someone in our hearts? this only applies to single ppl. Why can't we just get on with our lives without liking/loving someone? It fustrates me coz i am thinking about this certain someone but she's probably somewhere enjoying her life or doing something. So..if u can't get that person to like u..why bother thinking about em 24/7? my advice? just forget about it.. which is what i'm trying to do now in my case...
Ok..enough of that girlfriend/boyfriend shit, its time for some lessons about life. I used to put other ppl's priorities b4 my own... and before you know it, ppl will just trample all over you thinking that ur a fucking pushover. No more of this shit, i give u 10% and u expect 100%? go fuck yourself silly..really..do it...coz u deserve it. I'm changing.. and i think i'm changing in a good way, no more mister nice guy for u.. fuck with me.. and suffer the consequences. Yeeaa..that feels good.. so always love urself before others b'coz at the end of the day, u will be that damned fool if u don't love urself enough.