180 degrees

Its weird. one moment ur angry and another moment you just feel happy. Well I'm feeling happy now which is a good thing right? Just a little phone call can make u feel a whole lot better, hey that's cheating! But I love you and that's what matters rite!

Uhur..

Everyone has an ugly side in them. Don't make me show mine to you.

I donn'tt understandddd

Third eye blind-Jumper

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that youve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you dont belong
Youre the first to fight
Youre way too loud
Youre the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know somethings wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that youve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
Well hes on the table and hes gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What theyre doing here
And your friends have left you
Youve been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And i, I want you to know
Everyones got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that youve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
Understand
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Can you put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
And I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand

Communication

I just don't understand, how hard is it to drop a sms. Your tired, your busy, you've got an event, your caught up in something important. I'm just tired of listening to these excuses. Okay..read after me, "It is NOT hard to drop a msg" Even if the whole world is gonna crumble in half an hour, you've still got a few minutes to send a msg. And No.. the whole world is not gonna crumble and your not gonna kill anyone wasting a few minutes of your precious busy time to press a few buttons on the keypad and press send. Okay, I do admit that I am extremely frustrated. If I don't vent it out somehow, its gonna consume me from inside and I'm gonna be slashing my wrists when the time comes.

Okay so whenever i call you , u say ur busy la , tired la..is this my fuckng fault? NO it is NOT. I tried calling u earlier but no..no answers.busy etc. Now, your not making ur self busy to not think bout things but ur making urself so busy that ur avoiding me at the same time. WOW.. I just got PaWneD?!?! misconception??!? Well explain it to me. I really don't understand ur schedule but you nvr really explained did yea? Always telling me to understand this and that. How the hell am I to understand things which I hv no knowledge of? No I'm not being controlling etc. I just want to know how you are, how your doing. Not some half-baked ass reply smses and after that a damn freaking exodus like I totally dissapeared in ur friggin mind. In your heart, just tell me.. do you really love me anymore? At this point I don't know what to believe anymore.

If there was a song to define my feelings it would be

The White Tie Affair - Candle (Sick And Tired)

I took a ride on a February morning,
Just getting over it and dealing with the mourning,
I started thinking out loud: I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired,
My baby's flying off the edge of the road,
She's saying, "I'm so sorry about that note",
That left me all alone,
But I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong,
I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cuz I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Seven days since I've seen your face,
Seven nights I have laid to waste,
I'm burning out now,
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired,
I know we're hanging at the end of the road,
We've flown too high, make a swarm too low,
I heard a screaming out loud,
I heard a screaming out loud

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong,
I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cuz I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Think,
All the things that you say,
What are the things that you mean,
What are the things that you say to me,
Cuz your tradgedy,
A queen for his majesty,
All these plans for me,
Your kingdom is crumbling,
You're a tradgedy,
A queen for his majesty,
All these plans for me,
Your kingdom is crumbling,

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong,
I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cuz I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Burning for you,
Burning like a candle,
Burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Random

List of things i wanna rant about:-

-gutteruncensored is down for the freaking longest time (weeks now?)
-the tvants servers just died off on me
-My gf not answering my calls
-Your reading this blog at such an hr. Why I feel honored, not. Go get some sleep or smoke some pot orrrr do both! Great ideas come from a cucko mind which explains einstein's hairdo
-The new flyover connecting the old subang airport road to subang jaya is awesome. One straight road to uni!
-I wish I could win a lottery worth a million dollars so all my financial troubles could be washed away. Well If i did win a million dollars..I'd sow, say and do. That's the gist of what I heard in church this morning in my half-asleep mode. So i'll.. donate 100k to the church. Save up another 100k in my bank. and use the remaining money on whatever I need or want to use it for. Talk about having a wishful mind. Sigh. ps. I have nvr bought a single lottery ticket in my life. I shud start now..I think.
-I'm so gonna be late for class tmr. How to wake up now? You tell me la.
-I've missed the handball club for 2 consecutive weeks due to events and bad weather. 3 times a charm.
-Reading ppl's blog.
Cheek update ur blog la so free at home kanna grounded LOL
Zek, I hv no idea what ur new blog's add is.
Aaron ur a jackass. I don't know why I wrote that. Come back for christmas kay? i wanna go eat curry at ur hse.
QiGuang, bila mau lepak?
My one and only twin, Suets. Good luck in ur intern, hope you spot a good looking guy like me :D

OKOK enuff of this BS. Nitey nite

A new comandment

Thou shalt be banned from using the fast lane if your car is too slow.

To the idiot who suddenly drove on to the fast lane with me incoming at 120 km/h, i hope you don't get crashed up like a sardine can if you do that to other drivers next time. To make it worse, you go 70 km/h on a fast lane and u refuse to switch to the left lane. FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKER!

Fly away from here-Aerosmith

Gotta find a way
Yeah, I can't wait another day
And nothin' gonna change
If we stay around here
Gotta do what it takes
Cause it's all in our hands
We all make mistakes, yeah
But it's never to late to start again
Take another breath
And say another prayer

Then fly away from here
Anywhere
Yeah, I don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere
Won't let time pass us by
We'll just fly

If this life
Isn't hard enough
It ain't no nevermind
You got me by your side
And anytime you want
Yeah, we can catch a train and find a better place
Yeah, cause we won't have nothin' or no one keep gettin' us down
Maybe you and I
Could pack our bags and hit the sky

Then fly away from here
Anywhere
Yeah, I don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere
Won't let time pass us by
We'll just fly

Didn't you see your blue sky now
You could have a better ride now
Open your eyes
Cause no one here can better or stop us
They can try but we won't let them
No way

Maybe you and I
Could pack our bags and say goodbye

Then fly away from here
Anywhere
Honey, I don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hope and dreams are out there somewhere
Fly away from here
Yeah, anywhere
Honey, I don't, I don't, I don't yeah

We'll just fly...

How I wish we could fly away, right baby? :)

Sweet jazz

Hurt

Started handball today, and I don't know if I'm throwing the ball wrongly or what but my shoulder aches like hell. Its hard to even stretch it now without squealing in pain. I guess thats the price you gotta pay for throwing one hell of an unstoppable ball towards goal. The moment i threw it, its as if my shoulder slightly popped out and popped back in. Not gonna go for any heavy physical activities any time soon now.

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I thought It was over in my house. But, I saw them again. Not one now, but 3 of em. Fucking vermin. If I see one of them in my room, i'll go freaking berserk. Damned existences which shouldn't appear anywhere in the house.
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Why are you so busy to the point you come back 3am everyday? Am I the last thing in ur mind now? You'd rather go bond with all the other ppl in the world rather than just try to come back to talk to me. A lil msg everyday would be fine. I know ur tired but this is ur obligation to me! I'm not asking for too much am I....

Exhaustion

Pissed tired. Woke up at 8 plus and had to attend to house chores which made me late for class.
Class from 9am to 6pm ain't no joke and if u add it with work in Sbux from 7pm till 12am, its horrendous. Damn fucking tiring day.