bleh

My sleeping time is screwed up again -.-
Its 4.30 now and i have work at 2pm.. dunno if i can wake up or not ~.~

I miss my baby :( .. had to leave her at the store. (T.T)

Anyways, my refrigerator is officially condemned now after about 5 yrs of good service. Called a repairman to fix it up but i guess he's not coming today. There goes my ice cream and chocolate :/

smile

A perfect start for the day may not necessarily be the occasional sandwich or the ever present scent of brewed coffee in the kitchen, It can be the presence of someone you hold dear to you. To me, my day started of with sore eyes and a heavy head which was pretty much washed away with a quick warm bath. And there I was, sitting right in front of the computer screen again. Staring blankly into it, pondering of the plans which I had for the day. It was a hard choice I must say, between doing something you really want to do or to spend time with your other special half. Well, I'm glad i made latter choice.

Spotted you next to the pastry case today. You looked wonderful, well, you always manage to do that. A perfect start to the day indeed. A brimming smile, an infectious grin, the soft touch of your hands. A recipe for a fruitful day.

Now the day is over, the journey brought to a halt. Time to rest, time to dream.

If i could see a star, I would wish upon that star to give you a good nights' sleep. Till the next time we meet again, in our dreams. Nite.

sigh

People believe in a whole multitude of things, spirits for an example. To me, I believe in angels. I believe in a higher power. I believe in God. I believe in heaven and hell. Most of all, I believe in love. Love has done wonders in my life, it has brought me where I am right now. I feel lucky to love and be loved from God, my family, my friends and even my beloved dogs. And there's one thing I know for sure, I love you. From the first time i met you to the last time I saw you behind the bar in the store, I loved you. I have never felt so sure in my life. I'm not cheating to myself, I'm not disillusioning myself, I'm being honest to myself for I believe and feel with all my heart that I love you. Love is a wonderful thing I must say, it saves people from the deepest depths of darkness, gives them a second chance and even heals all the pain we might feel and suffer from.
I just want to say that I have found my angel. An angel which brings me back to my feet, an angel which loves me and cares for me tenderly with her embracing wings. That angel is you, Fern. But even angels have problems I must say, now, my angel is in pain..
If there was anything which could hurt me, it would be seeing you sad whilst I am not able to do anything to help. I think of you every day, every time.. I look at the empty seats and tables in the store and I see images of you.. smiling, happily giggling around. When I am with you, my day brightens up. Every time your not around, my eyes wander everywhere in hope of seeing you.. To be honest, I miss you. I'm sorry if I'm not being myself lately or even getting irritated for the slightest reasons. I truly am.



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feeling hungry @.@

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I can feel the sunshine, I can smell the freedom..

of..

a 2 1/2 month break. Y(^o^)Y

well, its already been about half a week since my the last day of class and i find things monotonously hectic. Class might be over but I still need to work to cover my hefty expenses and a hopefully-soon-to-be holiday trip with the fellars.

Strangely enough, theres still something bugging me since last Thursday..and I still don't know what It is. Dammit. Get the f*ck outta my head!

Apologies for my randomness but I can't think properly now and i still hv to go to work tomorow. T.T *sighs*

Time for bed.